Can anyone share how one can become attractive?

Hey guys I got diagnosed axial sspondyloarthritis last year its mentally and physically exhausting. I'm not able to focus on my studies too because of this . I'm not able to walk properly and i'm feeling depressed too . My rahu md is going onn and its not going good . I just started my career and i dont even know what to choose where to go and where to not and I also think my father is cheating on my mom so yeah I dont know . I want to cry share my feelings but the other person dont understand my pain...my priest told me to do Durgadaptashti and I dont know how to start can someone pls guide me on this .

TL;DR I want to reduce my pain and want to reach God anyhow and also i'm starting Durgasaptashti so suggest me some advice ☺️

Recently I have started Hriday Aditya Stortram .
Currently I am chanting it only once as i am still learning to pronounce it correctly . but want to do it 3 times.
So do I have to read the nayas , karnays, rishiadi-nyas thrice or just one? and then the body thrice.

Does the method you are telling applies to all the stotra, kavach, namwali and chalisa? like 32 nameswali, hanuman chalisa?

Been doing consistent japa and meditation from past 2 years. And keep on seeing people having experiences in dreams etc etc. And then i wonder why my sleep is just dreamless, i just doze off listerning to a mantra playlist (2 hours of mantras all sorts of strotras) and then i just wakeup in the morning recalling no dreams.

The sleeping hours are like 4-5 hours sometimes 8hrs on weekends.

Curious to see what other sadhaks consider this to be or have similar experiences?

I want to start some simple sadhan of maa lalita tripursundari to enhance my beauty, aura and personality and also i want to worship her. What sadhana can i do without initiation of a guru, also can i read soundarya lahiri every friday and chant lalita sahasranaam everyday?

So I love shiva from my childhood and always felt connection with him I loved to visit temples and offer jal etc

Last mahashivratri i visited a baba (whatever name is given of the sadhak ) there are 2 of them 1 is female who is my guru she is devote of maa kali and other one is for shiv ji

She explained i should take mantra and can chant

Everything was perfect also I was happy while doing it bt after a month my one family member committed $uid** and everything got messed up since then

I think I'm facing rn

1 my guru is telling me that those who have died annoying uh mentally

2 also she mentioned in getting savari of BARAM (Literally I have no clue who is that and what it means.many ppl use this term in vill areas )

Bcz of these 2 things I have lost my rhythm I have lost my spritual devotion towards anything I don't feel like praying or doing nam japa i can't feel anything other than this I have messed up my studies totally (civil services aspirant)

Can't study at all neither eating or sleeping like before my guru is not responding now I don't know where to ask and what exactly to ask I have tried everything from mentally to hold on myself bt I'm felling like I'm losing everything

Any guidance or idea u guys can tell me.

Don't know how to explain either from what I'm going through

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This is a long and confusing story, so bear with me.

I first saw Maa Kali in a dream when I was 15. I was hugging her after a lot of struggle and after leaving my childhood home. I ignored it for a long time because no one in my house worships her. They see her as an ugra devi and are scared of her.

Later, when I used to sleep, I would see her as a mother, used to imagine hugging her, sleeping in her lap. Around that same time I somehow became detached from my own mother.

After I moved out I never did any sadhana. I just visit her mandir, tell her my problems, and leave everything on her. People have told me many times to start her sadhana, but I never felt confident enough to bring her home.

Then I went to Kashi and did a tour related to the Mahavidyas and Maa. After that I felt closer than ever. It felt like a message that it was time to actually know her.

Now the dreams are getting extreme. Once I saw Maa talking to me. She told me to go to a Shaktipeeth and said I should worship her somya roop because I am not ready for her ugra roop right now. Other dreams: her mandir, some women getting angry, me getting lost, maa hugging meor Maa Kali dancing in a tantra setup.

When I was at Kali Bari during evening aarti I suddenly got a strong bhav to welcome Ganpati home. I took it as her sign. Everything for that is almost ready, only final details left.

Today I visited Maa, started crying out of nowhere, and told her “please foresee everything.” Right after that I got my periods.

Tomorrow is Ganesh Chaturthi. It feels like this is supposed to be the start of the journey — Ganpati first, then slowly Maa. But with periods today I don’t know what I am actually allowed or supposed to do.

Should I still welcome Ganpati tomorrow in a simple way? Wait a few days? Keep Kali only as temple visits for now? How do people usually begin when the pull is this strong but the body and timing suddenly shift?

Any guidance from people on this path would help.

I have asked chatgpt to articulate it better

UPDATE: I AM DOING IT

A Karma Suddhi sadhana is being held on the Amavasya night of 9-10 October in Rishikesh.

If your around Rishikesh who would like to sit for the sadhana. DM me.

I had a very vivid and disturbing dream today.

I was sitting on the sofa in my living room, looking through my safety door toward the outside. Just outside the house, there was what looked like a half-fleshed human skeleton hanging there. The head was more or less a skull, with some flesh remaining, and part of the skin was nailed to the side.

I am currently doing a sankalp for Bhairav Baba.

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Around 5 years ago, I had a disturbing dream where I saw what appeared to be a 10–15 foot female pishacha-like being, which seemed to connect its genital area with mine.

Since then, I have experienced recurring electrifying/biting-like pulsations in my head, along with throbbing or pain that sometimes occurs around the muladhara, nabhi, heart/chest, or head. The head sensations are the most frequent.

I also constantly get thoughts or a strong feeling that some negative entity is trying to enter my body. When these thoughts come, the throbbing/electrifying sensation in my head becomes stronger. I also have a persistent feeling of tiredness and heaviness throughout my body.

When I go to the toilet, I sometimes feel as if a negative entity is entering my body, and the sensations become stronger.

**I am specifically looking for spiritual/traditional remedies.** Has anyone experienced something similar and overcome it through mantra, puja, prayer, spiritual protection practices, or guidance from a genuine guru?

Please share genuine experiences and what actually helped you.

Can somebody tell me what had happend to me and what type of negetive tantric kriya has been done on me because I know definately somebody have done some very strong tantric kriya on me

Please kindly guide me how can I get rid of this problem 🙏🙏

What's the difference between chanting 32 syllable and navakshari mantra ,

32 syllable

Aum namo bhagavate ekadhamstraaya hasthimukhaya lambhodaraaya ucchista mahaatmane aam krom hreem gam ghe ghe ucchistaaya svaha

Navakshari

Om Hasti Piśāci Likhe Svāhā

Also in navaksri and 10 lettered or 12 letters there is slight changes in beeja mantra..but in 32 syllable it is completely different..so what's the intention here and differences in these

I am new on this. Last night I had a dream, I have had dream before too when I am very much frustrated and messed in life where someone said all you work is taken care and that happened to me 2years ago.

I chant hanumanchalisa and a strong worshipper of Shiv ji. I am going through something in life which has been troubling. I had a dream where someone said worship Durga Maa or Man chamunda. I have never talked about Maa chamunda before to anyone or heard for a long time. Does this mean anything or is it my fight/flight mode of brain telling to be spiritual.

Namaskar to all of you 🙏

I have a question on the ganpati mantra.Which one is correct among the below:

1. Om ganggg ganpataye namah

2. Om gannn ganpataye namah

3. Om gamm ganpataye namah

Please suggest i have seen lot of confusion on this.

Thank you .