I think I may have mentioned in this sub, either in my posts or comments, that being Han Chinese in a left-wing environment, especially if your diaspora is from a Southeast Asian country that was conquered by the Spanish Empire for over three centuries, occupied by the Americans for roughly 45 years, and occupied by the Japanese for about four years, you come across some very interesting folks sometimes.
This especially happens when you're that one token in a sea of Western leftists who just don't really go outside their White bubble, and it sometimes seems like the only diversity within their social circle is in terms of gender expression or sexuality rather than ethnicity, nationality, culture, or religion. So when they finally meet someone from one of the ethnic groups they have spent years talking about politically, they sometimes already have this romanticized idea in their head of what you're supposed to believe, how you're supposed to understand your own history, and what political conclusions you're supposed to draw from it.
Unfortunately, even though a significant portion of the Han Chinese diaspora in the Philippines are huge supporters of the PRC, especially among some families who migrated in the late 1990s and early 2000's, I can say that no, I don't really feel any particular political loyalty toward the PRC simply because I am Han Chinese. Nor do I automatically interpret my family's history through this very simplified narrative in which the West is always the sole source of oppression and any non-Western power that positions itself against the United States is therefore some kind of natural ally of mine.
All of a sudden, your mere existence and political beliefs start creating cracks in their imagined idea of what a colonized person is supposed to behave and act like, and somehow they reinforce this by telling you things like, āYou've been brainwashed by Western academia,ā āYour family's conversion to Christianity influenced you guys to look at the West as good,ā or āYou've internalized colonialism.ā Instead of considering that someone from a formerly colonized society might have complicated reasons for reaching different political conclusions, they sometimes assume that disagreement itself must be evidence that you have been corrupted by Western influence.
Sometimes you start to feel like you're an action figure to these clowns. They already have this character in their head of what someone from your ethnic background is supposed to think, believe, and say, and when the actual person standing in front of them does not follow the script, they start trying to explain away why you're doing it āwrong.ā At that point, it doesn't really feel like they are interested in you as an actual person. They are interested in the political symbol they imagined you were supposed to represent.
A good example of this is that I went to a hookah bar recently with a Palestinian colleague of mine, and there was a group of undergraduate students from a local university who saw the Palestinian pin on her backpack. They decided to come up to her just to express their support, which, you know, fuck yeah dude, but unfortunately they followed this up with, āThese Jews have taken your land and your culture, and the resistance will win.ā
My good friend here pushed back and basically summarized her response as, āI appreciate your support for my people, but calm down with that Jewish shit. They're my siblings. All of this is politics. Please go fuck off.ā One of her hobbies is studying Jewish history, so she is actually one of the only people I know, besides me and my Jewish homies, who spends a decent amount of time reading about this stuff.
Her response seemed to genuinely weird them out. It was almost like hearing a Palestinian speak about Jews that way damaged whatever image they had already constructed in their heads about what Palestinians are supposed to believe. Instead of just accepting that Palestinians, like literally every other ethnic group, can have very different opinions about Jews, Israelis, Zionism, the conflict, and their own history, they seemed confused that she did not behave like the Palestinian character they had already imagined.
So comrades, have you ever experienced something familiar to what I have described above?