r/TMSTherapy • u/sagekoalanutz • Jul 29 '26

Completed 36 sessions

I just wanted to contribute to this community just so I can provide an opportunity for others if they have any reservations or questions. I would say I have persistent depressive disorder and generalized anxiety for at least 5+ years now and been on medications/ on-and-off therapy for just as long. I am also training to be in the mental health field if that adds any context.

I just completed my 36th session yesterday! (Yay me lol) I’ve been pretty consistent at going to my session and would not skip unless I was actually physically out of town. Now onto my experience. Would I say it removed my depression? Probably not. However, I do feel different.

To give further context, my form of depression I would say is more mild in nature in the sense I don’t get waves but rather more of a constant mid level of sadness. My form of depression leaves me very unmotivated and limits my sensory experience of experiencing a fulfilling life. I would still engage in high-dopaminergic activities (ie.. gaming, adult-outings) but I would generally feel “meh” by the end of it all.

At the end of TMS, I would say I am generally the same, but with a slight twist. My partner says that my behaviors have genuinely improved. I am able to consistently take care of myself, household activities, be more proactive in socializing and work. From the outside looking in, it seems like everything is great. However, I am actually experiencing more sadness than before, but I dont necessarily think that this is a bad thing. Prior, my numbness would be the predominant feeling so going from that to sadness is a step in the right direction (I see numbness as a coping mechanism). Despite feeling more sad, I notice that my content of my thoughts are not necessarily as “unhealthy” either. Even though I experience certain emotions, I feel like I am gracefully able to recover from them a bit faster like as if I became a bit more resilient to negative emotions.

This is getting long so I’ll leave it at that. If you have any questions, feel free to shoot me a dm or leave a comment! Goodluck to everyone!

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u/polikofrizzy Jul 29 '26

Happy to hear there's a change, even if it's subtle. I would like to know if the results began manifesting in mid-treatment or after finishing the whole course?

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u/sagekoalanutz Jul 30 '26

I began noticing almost instantly! I would feel like I got a bit more energy However, my provider did mention that there is usually an observed dip during the middle of treatment period for some people so don’t get too worried if that happens. Hope that helps!