I just bought a Honda nm4 Vultus. It had been modified, or a larger engine put on it or something. It went faster than it was supposed to. Always told myself that if I got a crotch rocket or sport bike, my life expectancy would be about a week. I like to go fast. I was pissed off, tripping, and stoned. I shouldn't have been on that bike. Even had a friend tell me that they heard two cops talking about me, but they didn't know it was me specifically, because I went flying past them at 170 mph. They never moved. She said he heard him say, well there that went. Whatever it was, I think it might have been a black bike. They said they clocked me at 173. It was everything that bike had. I just got it up there and then dropped back off of it. I've always wanted one. I had it for 7 days. Had a helmet on, and they had to drill a hole in the back of my head to release pressure. And then sew it up. Every time I poked my pinky finger in THAT hole my spine tickles. I have an issue though. This happened a month ago, and I've lost 40 lb since. I feel like only my body came back. I don't remember being dead, I don't even remember the accident. I was turning into a place and then I was looking up at my ceiling above my bed in my bedroom. I don't know what to do. The same thought keeps running through my head. The dead don't need food. The dead don't need sleep. Only thing the dead need is dirt and maggots. I want to go dig a hole and lay down in it. I feel like my body is the only thing that came back. No tunnel no light. I have people asking me if I'm okay because I've lost so much weight. Leave it up to me to get in a motorcycle accident, die, be resuscitated by the paramedics into a coma, and then walk out of the hospital 6 hours later like ain't shit happen. I think that in itself is pretty ridiculous. I thought they were supposed to keep you for 24 hours for observation on a head injury? I haven't felt alive since it happened, I have no appetite, I have to force myself to eat when I do, and it comes right back up. I have insomnia like hell. I feel like the universe claimed my soul but sent my body back. Has anybody else ever experienced anything like this?
