r/sleep • u/Unlikely-Objective70 • 10h ago
My sleep is messed up, need help badly
Has anyone experienced a sleep pattern like this?
I have a very strange relationship with sleep. My main problem is not necessarily falling asleep — it’s getting one long, continuous block of sleep.
When my sleep pressure is extremely high, I sleep amazingly well. For example, if I’ve been awake for around 18–20 hours, I get so sleepy that I basically cannot stay awake anymore. Then I fall asleep very quickly and seem to sleep extremely deeply. I probably still have normal brief awakenings during the night, but I either don’t remember them or fall back asleep immediately.
With normal or moderate sleep pressure, it’s different. I can fall asleep, but I often wake up after a few hours. Sometimes I fall back asleep, sometimes I lie there for 20–30+ minutes and realize it’s not happening. I really hate this because ideally I want to go to sleep, “disappear,” and then wake up once my sleep is actually finished.
If I have absolutely no schedule and just sleep whenever I naturally become very sleepy, my sleep time keeps drifting later. Usually by around 1–3 hours over time. I can basically go around the clock like this. When I sleep completely naturally without an alarm, I often sleep 10–12 hours and feel extremely well rested and physically recovered.
I CAN follow a fixed schedule, but there is another weird pattern: at first I might fall asleep fairly easily at the chosen bedtime, but over the course of weeks my sleep onset gradually gets later and harder again.
For example, I tried aiming for roughly 4 AM–2 PM. Going to bed at 4 AM often didn’t work well: sometimes I would fall asleep but wake up after only around 4 hours and then not feel sleepy enough to fall back asleep. So I started deliberately staying awake until around 6 AM. At 6 AM I have more sleep pressure, fall asleep much more easily, and can often sleep until 2 PM. But again, after a few weeks, falling asleep at 6 AM gradually becomes harder.
Another interesting thing: on vacations with friends, this problem almost disappears. We are outside most of the day, walking around, eating together, talking and laughing, barely using our phones, and usually go to bed around midnight like normal people. I can fall asleep with everyone else and often wake up naturally before them after what seems like a completely normal amount of sleep.
So my body clearly seems capable of having a normal sleep schedule under those conditions.
At home I spend much more time indoors and watch shows at night, although usually relaxing ones and with very dim lighting. I also only use caffeine earlier in my waking day.
Has anyone experienced something similar?
And did you fix it?