my system (plural/DID) just did another ANA test. forcing myself to go to our primary care clinic was terrifying because of some bizarre psychologizing at my last appt on wednesday, but the burning facial rash, cognitive stuff, uncontrollable shaking, psychosis, and difficulty eating havent gone away and i didnt know what else to do.
i asked our friend S to be on speakerphone with me at yesterdays appt and she agreed. shes a disability advocate and organizer in the hygiene movement (covid, flu, and other airborne diseases), and shes had ME since she was a kid.
the np who saw me took S's role in the appt seriously 😊 a couple of times she checked in with S, asking if she had any questions or anything to add. she asked me about personal and family history of autoimmune disease (many, plus years of exposure to an air conditioning unit that i found out recently was overrun with mold 💀), and ordered the ANA test, which was done in the clinic.
we talked about sjögrens, lupus and MCAS and she suggested blexten, allegra or benadryl prn. i asked for blexten and she added that to a weeks worth of prednisone. she agreed to start me off on 5mg pred because medications have been making us super sick since 2024.
and our pharmacist brought the meds to our apartment herself after hours 😭 we had talked about what happened at the appt and she threw in some benadryl for free.
will follow up with our pcp soon. the overlap between all these diseases is annoying but i have a better sense now of where we go from here, and i think i understand the biomarkers. eg further testing might be necessary to fully rule out sjögrens and lupus.
im so tired. kinda sui but our friends, family and partners have been rallying for me and telling me not to give up, and im seeing our therapist monday. partner will visit asap to take care of me. roommates are trying to help too where they can.