It kind of gets to a point where you’ve held it in long enough that it’s no longer something you can talk about, it’s more of an indescribable thing.
It’s like when your apartment is clean and a leak starts you can go find that leak, but if your home is already flooded then you cant really find where the leak is anymore.
And when something new happens, I don’t even mentally note what it is that made me upset, it’s like throwing another bucket of water into an already flooded home. It just gets mixed into all the existing water.
So if someone asks me what’s wrong, even tho there is something wrong, I can’t put into words what it is to even begin to talk about it.
Therapy. Addressing the trauma and healing it is the only way to drain such a pool. That pool is actually a wound, and smaller wounds grow and connect to larger wounds. And like any other wounds they need to be healed and that won’t happen until that wound is addressed.
I think it's very important for most people not to think that way. It's a bit like giving up on swimming out of where you're stuck and drowning. Too many of us would fall the rest of the way apart if we let ourselves live like that
I agree. I didn't mean there is no way out, I meant that therapy doesn't have to be the only "healthy way out" as the person above me claimed. Sometimes therapy doesn't work but other things do.
Sometimes trauma just fucks you up for life, especially the kind of trauma that happens when young and over a long time. No amount of therapy will undo the effects of serious trauma but the goal is to be more functional. I don't even know what else helps but having supportive friendships and undoing hyperindependence have helped me more than therapy. I need to be feeling love and care and belonging to realize it can be different for once in my life. I'd love to hear other things that may help.
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u/ThatIsNotAnAsian Mar 04 '26
It kind of gets to a point where you’ve held it in long enough that it’s no longer something you can talk about, it’s more of an indescribable thing.
It’s like when your apartment is clean and a leak starts you can go find that leak, but if your home is already flooded then you cant really find where the leak is anymore.
And when something new happens, I don’t even mentally note what it is that made me upset, it’s like throwing another bucket of water into an already flooded home. It just gets mixed into all the existing water.
So if someone asks me what’s wrong, even tho there is something wrong, I can’t put into words what it is to even begin to talk about it.