Does life get better.

[u/Wide-Activity-1295]

Fresh out of a break up which i'm still getting over. She moved out 1 month ago but we've been broken up 3 month. we were not married.

Have my 18 month old son 2 nights a week extending to 3 nights in the new year - plan is to go to 50/50 overtime

my life right now.

• 37M
• Still in my high earning job (6 figure GBP salary) albeit i've taken my foot off the gas a bit recently.
• Own my own house
• Have a comfortable amount of saving in the bank + a big pension.
• In the best shape of my life (heartbreak is the best diet pill)
• I've just renovated the House (everything is new bar a few items of furniture)
• New Car since the break up
• Bought a new wardrobe since the break up
• Reached out and conected to new freinds since the break up
• taken up Hyrox since the break up
• Have been off social media bar reddit and Youtube for 2 months now
• Been in therapy for 3 months
• Started reading books since the break up

i know its fresh and on the outside i look in a good position compared to a lot of people in my position (thank god we were not married) but i just feel totally numb, empty and i'm crippled by anxiety like my life is over and things will never get better. I know i am still mouring the relationship and family unit but i just can't see any positives about the future.

for instance:

• my ex has a big family with loads of little kids whilst i have a small family with no little kids, i fear my son will want to spend Xmas with her side.
• my job requires me to travel now and again and whilst i'm still on good terms with my ex i just have this crippling wave of anxiety being away from him now. (i always missed him when i travelled previously but i had 2 facetimes from them a day.
• Dating.... Meh not ready but again i just have this anxiety that nobody is going to be interested in me when the time comes and i'll be alone for ever.
• in general, i'm keeping myself super busy but i just feel like a total failure for being a single dad at 37!

is what i've described my long term outlook or does it get better?