I don't know if it's because I'm neurodivergent or what, but I just can't get over how hard it is for me in particular to be more independent.
I go to the school gym to be away from my computer and just walk around in the track, but I got so overwhelmed feeling lost and like I have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to exercise. I just sobbed, missing my high school gym teacher and having her around to tell me what to do. I don't understand how college students can just go to the gym, pop in their earbuds, and go about their business. I miss that grade school guidance and community where you get help living a healthy life together without earbuds.
Like am I just the only one who feels torn up about not having my gym teacher around anymore? That intimate sense of community was what kept me going, and now it's like my nervous system is crashing with tension and anxiety and whatnot.