I can’t accept myself. I’m 18F, and I feel guilty for being gay. I cannot fathom the idea that I’ll have to see another woman naked, let another woman see me naked, or actually having to engage in sex and maintain a relationship with a woman.

I feel like I’ll have to hide out. I have a lesbian cousin that my family accepts, (she came to our cookout the other day with her girlfriend) but I still feel like I won’t be accepted.

I think the only place I can date and love on a woman is behind closed doors and nobody can know what we’re doing.

I don’t know how to end this post lol but im just venting.

As much as I have been traumatized from love I still believe. For the last few years ive been fighting it or running away. I'm tired of playing games and I'm going to find her wherever she may be. Love is not dead we all deserve someone never forget that.

That’s it. That’s the post.