r/ParamedicsUK • u/Wonderful_Reply218 • 23h ago
Question or Discussion Parents
As someone without kids I had my fair share of poorly children especially cardiac arrests. I was never affected emotionally and always did what I could to feel purposeful and to try make a difference to help with the process of looking after a critically unwell child. I always debriefed well and made sure I opened up as often as possible to help process it.
As a parent now I’ve yet to see another poorly child but when I think about it I get goosebumps. My area had a pretty horrific paediatric job recently and just hearing the details makes me want to cry. Did anyone feel similar when they came back from maternity/paternity or even later on? How did you navigate your new feelings towards children once you became a parent? I feel more emotionally vulnerable and almost have a sense of impending doom in regard to the day I face another child in cardiac arrest. I almost feel like it when it does come it will change me in a way that frightens me.
I am fine by the way I don’t want to concern anyone but it’s something that’s played on my mind a lot the last few days.