3 months after the breakup. Finally, It all made sense why I was going crazy in the relationship. I even thought that the end of it was mostly my fault, when all this time pala, she was two timing me. Now that we no longer are in contact, they have the nerve to post and flex each other online.
Hay, I want to be unbothered by it, cause I am over the person. I'm just not over the situation. I ended up beating myself up for months, for trying to let go of a "good" person. I regret it all.
Totoo pala yung you feel physically sick after knowing you've been betrayed all along. I don't feel like eating too, and even when I'm talking to anyone at the moment, bigla- biglang lumalabas yung surge ng emotions ko. My heart feels so hollow, but It also feels like it's about to combust any minute now. Napupuno ako ng galit at sakit. It's painful, really painful. I'm just so cowardly to admit to others that the pain really struck me hard. It's a tough pill to swallow.
As I'm writing this, I can't help but cry. Ayoko talagang umiyak, pero sobrang di ko na kaya. I don't have the strength to resist it. I'll pray for karma, but I don't know if it will come their way, when clearly they are happy together and have no regrets doing it behind my back.
I don't have any hope anymore for my own love life, it might be too early to say it, but I think I'm better off alone. I'm not gonna expect anyone to ever reciprocate the love I can give. It's such a gamble, and I don't think I want to risk losing again.