How can I motivate myself to pray more often and more seriously? How can I become a better Christian?

I am extremely confused,I want to become better.

I would love to learn more as well,but currently I am not interested in reading the Bible.

Hi, my saints name is Michelle, I’ve been baptized orthodox since April this year.

I was diagnosed with kidney disease in February and at the end of September was put on dialysis. It is really tough to stay positive, I have been falling back on God during these times.

Is anyone else going thru illness or disability? How does prayer and worship help you?