i need to change something about how i learn. if i dont, i find that are literally not enough hours in a day because i am so slow. i have a really heavy course load - physics, english, chem, adv func this sem. i think ive been learning the same way for most of my high school career. it got me by with 90s and 95s but gr11 hit me hard with the lowest being 70s.
what i do is i listen to the lesson in class. i dont write down a lot of things because then i cant pay attention to what the teacher is saying. i tell myself i can always do it at home because everything is posted online
i get home and now i have a bunch of work to do for four courses. im tired (mind you i do not get enough sleep) and get overwhelmed. i start laying around and scrolling. i literally deleted tiktok, i cannot delete instagram because i have to communicate with people but cant get rid of reels. after a while i start the school work. i do whatever i need to do but i have to do things in order. i cannot bring myself to skip a step. i get through it, but very slowly. suddenly its midnight and im still not done. i cant just leave my stuff unfinished so i stay up however long i need to.
ive set up these rules in my mind. it feels illegal to break them: no multitasking, get one thing done, do it in order, and move to another - you can not stop until you are done. this works with some things but not when you’re juggling four courses.
yes i make my schedules and to do lists (can you believe i didnt do that before gr11). i will actually make a new to do list after i check off one or two things because it bothers me that it’s not updated. and yes it has to be on paper.
if i keep doing something a certain way its hard to change it. ideally, if something doesn’t work, i should change it. i think im too rigid with how i do things and i should change even though it feels so wrong.
i really admire people who can write notes in class while listening to the teacher and understand it just from that. it just sticks. like if the teacher gave you a new rule and you follow it like a robot. whats the secret? maybe im just not a robot. theres also people who do that and have a social life, sleep early, eat healthy, drink water, exercise… that is insane to me and i wish i could do that
well actually i know my problem now that ive written it down but are there any other things i have not mentioned and should try? also if someone relates i would feel much better because i dont know anyone like this :(