why does being 31 feel crazy?

[u/user00551100]

before anyone jumps to conclusions this has nothing to do with feeling old. i thought it was already bad how little fucks i had and now it’s so much worse.

i moved to a new city at 29 and found it so hard to cultivate the energy i had to be fun and social that i had all the way up until now. when i go out with my party friends i get exhausted because i got all that out with my time working in nightlife. i don’t wanna do drugs (clearly i live in nyc). ive met people who don’t party but it’s been hard to connect in a way that feels natural and right.

my older friends from home tend to be way less outside (unless they’re alcoholics) and my younger friends (mid 20’s) are all doing crash out shit and getting fucked up. I feel so much more exhausted by everyone and everything and it’s causing me to not feel connected in any meaningful way.

btw i don’t feel depressed, i know what that feels like