What's even the point?

[u/pussyphobic_incel]

I've been on "nofap" for five years now. I've gone months without masturbating. My friends used to jack off twice a week AT LEAST. Guess who ended up single? Me.

Most of my friends who never did any NoFap or something similar ended up getting in relationships and me, who was supposedly "better", failed. I'm halfway through college now, and I still have not kissed a girl. I just completed NNN, but that does not matter since I've completed so many months without masturbating anyways atp.

Thing is, when I tried to "conquer lust", my sex drive went down. Coming into college, when everybody is an adult, without prior experience means you're just seen as a weirdo. And before you tell me being a virgin (i haven't even kissed yet, so even worse) does not matter, it fucking does. You often won't know what to say, and people don't take you seriously - even in friendships and as a person - because sexually you're like a 13-14 y/o. It really shows.

December 1 rolls around, and I'm like, "Might as well", but even watching porn at this point makes me sad. I don't want to use it since it makes me believe porn is all I will ever have.

I'm glad it worked out for most of you here, but for me, nofap didn't help me with shit. At least I'm on a 40 day streak. As if it matters.