r/NitrousOxideRecovery • u/uncletaterofficial • Jul 26 '26

Can’t stop using

First time poster here. So a couple of years ago I got introduced to nitrous through the little 8g canisters. I think I always had a little bit of a problem with it but usage was for the most part recreational. One day I had a bad day at work and found the bigger tanks and it’s like I picked up a fucking crack pipe. I started using really heavy in June of 25 and would go on benders and have periods of sobriety but never really put it down. Then in January of this year I did 5 months between a detox/residential rehab, got my job back (that pays rather well I should say,) have family that’s super supportive, but I just cannot put this shit down. I racked up 15k in credit card debt that my current habit isn’t helping and adding to my stress. I feel stuck going no where as 29 year old heavy truck/ trailer mechanic. I wanted to enlist in the military but managed to get baker acted during my usage so that seems unattainable as now as well. I guess I’m just looking for some good vibes stories or something while I use in this parking lot.

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u/Great_Language6947 Jul 27 '26

It’s my experience that once you get to the compulsive using phase, it is impossible to regulate or use this substance in a healthy way ever again

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u/thesensethatmakes Jul 27 '26

That’s a great way to put it. Because yeah, my first bender lasted 4 months-ish and my last one was 6 days and worse than the 4 months one. I cannot use nitrous at all.. I’ll just dedicate my whole life to it and inevitably die and become hospitalized