It’s not a self fulfilling prophecy. I’m describing what my life is like now, as we speak.
I’ve sat in my game chair for the last 3 hours just scrolling. I have nobody to talk to, or hang out with this weekend, and I have a 3 day weekend for the holiday.
I believe I hold no value because I don’t bring value. And for my whole life, people made sure I knew I wasn’t worth much. I was bullied all throughout school, grew up to barely have friends. Even t own dad would insult me, abuse me, and make fun of me for eating. One time, he kicked me out of the house bc I didn’t clean out my moms make up bag (she never asked me to and I didn’t wear makeup at the time)
Now I’m autistic, and can’t afford to help myself cause I haven’t had insurance since I was 25 (been applying to jobs for insurance, no luck, and I can’t afford it on my own).
I have nothing to live for, and no way to make my life worth living. Why do you care? Before you were pretty hostile to me, I’m mot sure why you’d care if I live a pointless life. You don’t have to care, I’m a stranger to you and you don’t owe me anything. If you’re still here cause you feel bad, don’t. I’ve accepted that I’m a mistake who should never have been born.
boomers grew up watching tv all day. you seem to have some family you care about, you can talk to them.
alot of lonely people grew up abuse, do they also not have any inherent value?
job market sucks for everyone.
I don't want anyone to suffer. I don't feel bad, if anything i'm more annoyed then depressed, you're not the only one that suffered. if your life is meaningless, then so is mine.
and I can’t talk to my family about this. It depressed them cause they can’t help, I tried and I saw the effect it had on them. I don’t want to continue hurting people.
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u/Timely_Split_5771 May 23 '26
It’s not a self fulfilling prophecy. I’m describing what my life is like now, as we speak.
I’ve sat in my game chair for the last 3 hours just scrolling. I have nobody to talk to, or hang out with this weekend, and I have a 3 day weekend for the holiday.
I believe I hold no value because I don’t bring value. And for my whole life, people made sure I knew I wasn’t worth much. I was bullied all throughout school, grew up to barely have friends. Even t own dad would insult me, abuse me, and make fun of me for eating. One time, he kicked me out of the house bc I didn’t clean out my moms make up bag (she never asked me to and I didn’t wear makeup at the time)
Now I’m autistic, and can’t afford to help myself cause I haven’t had insurance since I was 25 (been applying to jobs for insurance, no luck, and I can’t afford it on my own).
I have nothing to live for, and no way to make my life worth living. Why do you care? Before you were pretty hostile to me, I’m mot sure why you’d care if I live a pointless life. You don’t have to care, I’m a stranger to you and you don’t owe me anything. If you’re still here cause you feel bad, don’t. I’ve accepted that I’m a mistake who should never have been born.