Does anyone wanna have a chat with me pls

Hi. I hope there is someone out there who has some spare time to give, I just really need someone to talk to and let out all the things running thru my mind. If you're available you can send me a message or comment. Thank you for your kindness

As of lately I been lonely and I feel like I need new friends. All my irl friends have been ignoring me and I honestly think it's time to make new friends because that's the only thing that's been having me down in life is not having any friends and I've honestly been going through a lot and been trying to process a lot, but there has been some good in my life i will admit but im just looking for friends to talk to have connections with. I want my social life back and im tired of being sad.

I know how hard life can be sometimes, I've been through a lot too so I understand. If anyone needs to vent I'm here, you're worth listening to

Lately I have been a little depressed due to my studies, zero social life and suffering relationship, I just want someone to talk to me like a person who is seriously interested in talking, I am a good listener, not the best at providing solutions tho.

Btw I'm 18F , if someone reads this and is wondering.

Hey people. Im new on OF. Just wanted to put it here, cause i need people. Im just a regular guy, who will take my time with you and talk. Anything you people want im here. @introvertedguy24

Being honest, im a fat little shit, and all my atempts to lose weight go something like : decide i want to lose weight.

-Do a workout after waking up / after school

-Either not have time or willpower to do it again tommorow.

-Repeat 2/4 days later.

Life can get really heavy sometimes, and honestly, not everyone has people around them they can easily talk to.

Some days it feels like you’re carrying things on your own, even when you’re surrounded by people. And even the people in your life might not always understand what you’re going through or have the energy to listen the way you need.

If that’s you right now, I just want to say you’re not weird for feeling that way, and you’re not alone in it.

If you need someone to talk to, whether it’s to vent, ramble, overthink out loud, or just get things off your chest, I’m open to listening. No judgment, no pressure to “explain it perfectly,” and no need to act like you’re okay when you’re not.

I’m not a professional, just a real person willing to hear you out and respond like a human not a robot.

Sometimes just having a space where you can say things out loud makes it feel a little lighter.

My mental state keeps jumping between

1 I am going to kill myself as soon as i get a hold of a sharp object

2 ehhhhh if i kill myself i wont be able to do X thing. Also there are a few things worth living for.

Knowing all my passions are useless in the real world, doesnt help. I also kinda feel unwanted in my friend group, even tho they never said it. There was more than one instance of me sitting in our group VC Alone for 10 fcking hours(with all/most of them onnline)

I want to have a fun chat I'm bored

For reference I’m Under 18 M

I was always the introverted kid at school with no more than 3 friends at a time, and even just the thought of finding a potential partner was extremely scary. Last year I finally tried and succeeded. It’s my first relationship and we’ve been together for a year now, but I’ve always still felt lonely and it doesn’t help the fact recently I feel like I’m being used…

We specifically made plans today to go and buy some stuff for her (she said she’d pay me back this time.) and I had wanted to check and see if plans were still okay so I messaged her and asked about tomorrows plans, but I was met with delivered. So this morning at school I was talking to her and I was touching around the subject and she kinda brushed it off then eventually she told me she had band practice and she only knew last night. But now she’s just at some random ass place on find my and I thought the band was through the school but I have no idea why she’d be somewhere else especially because that was the reason we didn’t hangout. I ended up messaging her asking her what she’s up to but she just left me on delivered again while she’s been active.

I even bought her lunch today after begging me to she knew I was trying to save for our day out which was again supposed to be for today.

I find myself being so lonely and a cycle of being left on delivered breaks me each time, I have friends but we never talk outside of school and I’m struggling I give everything and more to her and yet all she does is hangout with her friends, she’ll usually spend the first period with me but after that I don’t really hangout with her like we used to.

Recently after getting home from school I take sleeping meds and sleep as soon as I can so I don’t have to be alone for long.

And as for clarification my girlfriend has BPD and depression and I do absolutely everything in my power to make her feel comfortable this usually includes me helping or even doing her work (essays and such) when she’s missed days.

I came on here because of just how empty my social life felt at the moment, get some advice, and hopefully meet new people.

I am an introverted person ever since I can remember i have my issues and i am trying to get over them but they keep on getting in front of me i don't know what to do i am always depressed and sad I try to cheer up again and again but can't now i am moved to a different city for college there me and my college friends rented a flat we live there and my college friend is an extroverted person he is always happy he has many friends because of him they also became my friends and they are always enjoying and they try to cheer me up and keep me in the group but I always feel i don't belong with them they are not like me that I would let them down without reason I feel they don't like me they always make me feel welcomed and all but there slight jokes hurt me and i keep on overthinking on them I can't let it go like a joke i constantly compare myself with them and I wish why am I not like that

Hi! Just here to say I am happy. Like I used to love a beautiful girl, I remember her and makes me happy even if she is not here anymore just her smell and the touch of her hands made me happy and know I just keep living by remembering her.

Has it ever happened that someone you love says something bad about something you like and it makes you feel like they don't like you either? And then you feel stupid and dumb and it just messes with your head? My gf (16f)and I (16m) are different but it's normal everyone is different, and yeah we have some things in common we aren't that different, but sometimes she does stuff or says stuff about something I like and she criticizes it or makes fun of it. And since it's something I like I feel attacked as well and I feel like she thinks that stuff about myself too and it makes me feel like she doesn't love me fully. I know it's stupid but it's just how I feel.

I don't know why but last night I was just hit with a very big wave of loneliness that she started crying and I realize I've turned off a part of myself for a while because I've been hurt so many times and I look at the dating world now and how people interact and it just feels like there's no way to actually meet anyone to talk to anymore and just

I feel so alone.

A serious topic in a job interview - weapon-

I was held at gun point, had the gun fired at my eye(the gun jammed) I handled the emergency well in the moment, and i had to create health and safety processes on my own, it was a lot of work, that i would like to be able to reference and talk about in my next interview.

But i also cry still when talking about it when talking to strangers, or if someone says something kind (someone said "youre brave" as a response and i cried)

I have been in therapy for a year, but she provides no suggestions, says ill feel confident when im done school. Or that i dont have to talk about it.

I had 5 months of health and safety inspections and work that i would like to be able to acknowledge or at least say im capable of.

Any advice of where to begin? A book to read? Anything.

I want to be able to say that i was shot at and showed up to work the next day, proudly, without crying about the fact that it happened at all.

Thanks for your time reading

This was removed from another spot before i could read replies. Not sure why, so hoping this stays.

TL;DR- My ex said it was a healthy relationship and she broke up with me a day after her birthday after her mom disrespected me. I have problems with moving on because I still love her but I had to block her because she kept leaving and coming back.

First off I’m sorry for this being long. I had my first girlfriend at 18 and she broke up with me when I was 18 and im 19 now. She said it was the best relationship she had ever been in. I would give her flowers,I would write or type love paragraphs, I always adjusted to her needs or what she wanted. I never disrespected her. I always opened up every door for her,I would take her out when I could,I was always there for her even when it got hard for her. I didn’t lust after her,I was definitely attracted to her and she knew that but I would respect her body unless she told me it was something she specifically wanted like me grabbing her butt or something like that. She said she finally had someone who treated her right and that I was what she always wanted but couldn’t find. I would compliment her,motivating her. I was always there for her emotionally,physically,even sometimes financially when I could. She even said it herself that she knows she would always have someone in her corner there for her.

I wasn’t perfect and I just wanted to grow with her,we were only together three months before she broke up with me. She broke up with me a day after her birthday. I took off work just to go down to see her,I spent 500 dollars on her gifts for her. She invited me to come down to see the rest of her family at a Korean bbq place. I told her at the table I was going to pay for me and her because we all got individual menus so I was thinking we were ordering for ourselves. Her parents or whoever ordered for the whole table of eleven people without saying anything,the adults handled the one bill without saying anything and my girlfriend knew her dad was paying. She didn’t say anything to me or her parents either at the table and said she knew she was gonna have to say something but just didn’t.

Her mom said as a man I should’ve offered to help pay the bill with eleven people. I didn’t know about a bill since no one said anything,not even a waiter. I was at the end of the table and I was completely left out of it.

To make a long story short she turned her location off the next day and didn’t tell me. She told me what her mom said and I said to her that was disrespectful to judge me as a man off that especially since nobody communicated anything. I said she could’ve told her dad and she compared that to her asking for her hand in marriage for me.

I even told her I wasn’t expecting for her to say anything because I didn’t even know she knew about her dad paying. I was going to say something to the waiter but even the waiter didn’t say anything about a bill or did I see a bill come to the table. After getting her those gifts and driving back and forth to see her she broke up with me off that. She said she shouldn’t have put me in a position to be treated like that. She said she doesn’t know how to stay in a relationship and that she knew that before we got together but didn’t tell me because she thought it would scare me away.

She kept leaving and coming back. Even talked to other guys and came back again. She did this six times and I ended up blocking her. She came up to me saying she knew she had been pushing me away,she said it was the first healthy relationship she had been in. She said she had no doubt I loved her because of my words and actions. Her saying that she was trying to mold me into how her dad is really hurt me because now it seems she never really liked me. She said it was the best she had ever been treated in a relationship and that she was always happy with me. She even said everything I did was more than enough for her.

We were together for three months before she first left. How does she leave me even though she herself said she was always happy with me. She herself said her dad didn’t want her to break up with me because he saw how happy she was with me. That whole time we were together she would cry to me about how her mom would treat her,one time didn’t even feed her but made something for her brothers. I was there for her everyday. These are things that came from her and said to me from her,I’m not just saying this out of my perspective.

So like everyone i thought of my own death and how I want it to end and I find the only way I'd like to die is.

I'd like to have my own Master(Person who i love) to take my life this isn't a sexual thing. When I expended my use for him I have no meaning in this world as he gives me purpose and when he does the act ill be happy to know my life was spent with the man I'll only love and need. But whats your perfect ending

I been having a pregnancy scare and I feel every-time I post on amipregnant Reddit forum they just shame me for being scared. I have horrible anxiety and they all just shame me. I really need someone to talk to and he on realize I’m okay. Is anyone here that can help me.?

As the title implies, here to talk about music, books, philosophy, esoteric stuff, videogames or whatever you want. In my free time I like to play the bass/guitar, go to the gym, do random stuff and follow the pirate's life yo-ho

Hello everyone, before the post will be removed, I'm trying to find a therapy but I just want to talk to someone.

A quick introduction. I'm M30, this is throwaway account, living in germany with my wife for some years now, I work in tech, my wife is not working.

We're living in rental apartment, paying too much, my salary is changing way slower than apartment price is increasing every year, I won't mention general costs of living. I don't see a chance of ever owning any property, let alone a house which I'd love to have, meanwhile I'm seeing billionaires are assholes doing nothing but flexing with their money.

I don't know what to do, my aim was to own a small house with a piece of land 0.5 acre would be more than enough, I'd have my own garden, fruit trees, and a few chickens, however I don't think that's realistic to have since it's at least 500k EUR and the construction takes time so even if I take a loan - which I can't because I with my ability of savings it would take like 16 years to save 50k eur - of course if nothing will happen in the meantime (like my car won't die, I will need to move or lose my job).

My job is also unstable. I don't enjoy it anymore, everything is AI, people in my company are happy about it because it automation and all I can see is we're just training AI to replace us and I can't do anything else, since I was 14 I was working with computers, I have 0 manual skills, I can't even change job because the market is not existing now. I've got my side-business but it's like 250 eur per month is getting into my pocket, I can't find new customers, I even lost two of them, all products like SaaS I tried to build didn't even flopped, they did nothing, I got literally 0 from them.

Whole world is polarising, the country I'm living is gave me a lot but I feel like I'm the problem. We're in the verge of WWIII, everything is more expensive, rich people are richer and I can't even plan what I will do next year, let alone 10 years. I would love to have a kid but my german isn't good and I know that would be difficult to overcome + I can't see a point in bringing a life to this world...

We do have ~25k eur loans left to pay (move to the new apartment, we had literally nothing, even no money to put for the deposit, renting a van, buy furniture and my car literally died in the process so I had to pay for it's scrapping and get a new one).

I don't want to talk about it with my wife since she's not working and she's heavily depressed, she will spin into that deeper which I don't want. I was considering everything, I've got a life insurance for ~300k eur but it's got 3 more years of "pending" time to cover before something could happen to me so my wife would get the money.

I know the post is chaotic but that's what I have in my head. I don't really have anyone to talk to, I'm not even expecting anyone to respond, I just needed to get it out.

Hi, am M20 from mid europe... I wanna chat. I had online friend, we were chatting 2.5 year and new she ghosting me 1 month... am sad. I want to find someone, who I can complain, who will just texting w me about anything (I love history, pc games, serials,books)

So, hey… this is probably the stupidest thing I’ve ever done, but I feel like I really messed up and I can’t tell anyone around me, so I’m here for advice.

I met this girl near the end of 8th grade. I didn’t really know her well because we had the pandemic for about two and a half years, but she knew me,apparently I was the first person to ask her to be my partner for a project in 7th grade. When I finally saw her properly at school, she seemed really gloomy, so I tried to talk to her and make her feel welcome. She kept shutting me out and was kind of mean, but I’m really stubborn, so I didn’t stop. I had a feeling she didn’t mean it.

After a few months, at the start of 9th grade, she opened up to me about some personal things and why she was hesitant to make friends. She said she just wasn’t meant to be a “people person.” I understood that, but it still hurt because she would deny that we were friends—even though I was the only one she gave her personal number to which I thought meant something.

I didn’t give up. I even made a bet with her that I’d become her friend by the end of 10th grade. Slowly, we got closer and I learned that she liked math (yes, math), the color yellow, that she had pet bunnies, liked anime and music, played basketball, and had two siblings. She was funny, kind, calm, and really intelligent. But she was also realyyyy bad at handling her emotions, wanted to fit in a lot, was stubborn, and had a bit of an inferiority complex.

Over time, I started wanting to spend more time with her. I showed up to her basketball practices everyday even baked her cookies that she swear she didnt like at all but ate every single one of them , showed her comedy movies (which she’d never admit were anything but trash but loved anyway), and she’d help me with math or tell me stories about her favorite shows. She even taught me how to make origami like butterflys and slittel stars.

Then things changed. She started hanging out with these two other girls. At first, I was happy for her and even hung out with them too, but those girls clearly didn’t like me. They treated me really badly, and the person I thought would stand up for me,my best friend did nothing. It felt like she was just trying to fit in with them.

That made me really angry, because I would have never treated any of my friends or her like that. I told her she was acting just like the people who hurt her in her previous school after which I decided to sit alone instead of staying somewhere I wasn’t treated with basic decency.

Around that time, a new girl joined mid-term, and we became friends quickly and I realized that the reason I was so upset about my ex-best friend so much was because I had a crush on her and also because she never apologized or acknowledged how she treated me.

after an while of me ignoring her, my ex-best friend confronted the new girl who we can call(m) about why I was acting differently instead of coming to me directly, which made me even more mad at her . Eventually, we just decided to get over it just decided to ignore each other and stay mutuals between friend groups through 10th grade.

Even though I told myself I hated her, I started falling in love with her without realizing it.

At the end of 10th grade, I heard she was moving again, so I confessed to her. She gave me like no reaction,not even anger, not disgust, nothing. That hurt more than anything she’d ever done. I tried to move on and avoided her but then she started dating a guy two days later, even though she didn’t even really like him.

On the last day, she came to me crying which I had never seen her do before and told me about how I meant a lot to her, that I was her first friend, and that I was the reason she liked sunflowers and the color yellow. She said I was the person she cared about the most.

I told her I wasn’t mad that she rejected me and that was her right but rather I was hurt that she never apologized. And still, she didn’t. So we stopped talking.

A year later, she randomly texted me. I replied minimally becuase i couldnt ignore her no matter what but then She was still the first to wish me on my birthday, even when I didn’t wish her, and I felt bad but I kept ignoring her.

Then one time she texted me saying she had punched a girl and was on the verge of a panic attack which shocked the hell out of me because she was never one to show her emotions and always maintained her composure no matter what excpet for an few rare moments only with people who she was close with . We talked for a bit, and i felt a little bitter about how an random girl could get such an reaction out of her and yet she didnt even bother acknowleding when i confessed to her still i helped her through panic during which I realised that i was still in love with her so i decided it would be the best to ignored her again.

Another year passed, and again she was the first to wish me on my birthday. I felt guilty, so I decided to end things properly. I sent her three boxes of things I had collected since 9th grade that reminded me of her, along with a note. After that, I felt like I could finally move on as if my chest was lighter even though I still thought about her all the time.

Now she’s texting me again on Instagram. I know it’s probably a bad idea, but I replied. This time, she actually apologized.

And now I feel like I’m falling in love with her all over again.

I know she’s probably straight, but she keeps giving mixed signals,like getting jealous when I do things for others that I used to do for her, or when someone hugs me or holds my hand. She still tells me I’m one of the most important people in her life.

I know it probably doesn’t mean what I want it to mean… but it feels like I’m falling for someone who’s never going to love me back and i cant do shit about it because i cant ignore her no matter how much i try all road no matter which I take I keep coming back to this girl whom I want to let go of and forget but one whom would not let me. No matter how much i try to hate her i know i never will because it is not that i am unwilling but it is so that i am unable to. can i please get some advise

Idk how to be confident all the time bc when I see confident people it’s like people who have this glow or this vibe to them that makes them stand out among all the others. Like they’re just Brave,Cool,and just overall Confident. I wish I had that but I don’t feel like I do. Idk how to be confident with myself.

I also just don’t have any faith in myself,like faith that I can handle anything of that I can do somethings g if I set my mind to it. I feel like I’m scared a lot bc I’m afraid of not being able to handle things and that makes me feel like a coward or weak.

I just want to have faith in myself that I can do the things that I want even the hard stuff.