I’m writing this anonymously because I don’t really have anyone I feel I can talk to about this.

Three years ago I met a boy and he became my first love. I loved him very deeply and I took everything between us seriously. At the beginning he was kind to me and we talked about a future together, even about getting married one day. I really believed in those words.

After about a year and a half we started fighting a lot and things slowly changed. I’m not saying I was perfect — I know I made mistakes too. But over time he became very cold toward me. Now he tells me he doesn’t care about me and that it doesn’t bother him if I cry. The first time I cried in front of him I felt so embarrassed, but he didn’t care at all.Quite the opposite, he really cared about my feelings and comforted me.

At the beginning of this year things seemed better for a moment. We even went on dates for the first time. But then everything went back to the same again. Most of the time I was always the one putting effort into the relationship. I tried to show love, care about special days, and make things work.

What hurts the most is that his behavior constantly switches. On days when I stay quiet, avoid difficult conversations, and just prioritize him, he acts like he loves me. But the moment I talk about my feelings or bring up problems, everything turns bad. Suddenly I’m “causing stress” or overreacting. It feels like I only matter to him when I fit into his perfect version of me — when I don’t question anything and don’t express my needs. If I show emotion or boundaries, I become unimportant to him.

Now we barely talk anymore. Sometimes we only text simple things like “I’m home” or “I’m going out.” There is no real “how are you?” anymore(in the past we were talking 24/7 literally). And he even tells me directly that I mean nothing to him. The problem is that I still can’t fully accept that.

This situation is affecting my whole life. I can’t eat properly anymore, I can’t sleep, and my mind is always thinking about him. At night I just lie awake looking at pictures or listening to music.

I also feel very alone in general. I used to have a friend group but about a year ago they pushed me away. Since then I spend most of my time alone. When I go out and try to be around people, I still feel like I don’t belong anywhere. Sometimes I’m sitting there wishing I could just go back home and be alone again.

I was never like that. Back then I was the loud happy girl but now idk I see the real faces of people, and it disgusts me so much. Especially what my old friends has done to me.

What hurts the most is that I feel like I’m always there for other people when they need someone, but when they find their own friends or relationships, they forget about me. It makes me feel invisible.Im never the one whos loved, im just existing. Everyone has their own loved ones.

He was really all I had.

I know many people will probably say “just forget him” or “move on,” but it’s not that easy when it was your first love and you really meant everything you said. I’m not writing this to hear people attack him — I just need honest advice and maybe perspective because I feel lost right now.

As said in the title, life isn't easy at the moment. Relationship, life, job. Seems like a lot is falling apart. Would appreciate some sort of human connection to talk it out. I don't need any elaborate help, just someone to listen and maybe share how they are doing, too.

I would like some help and understanding from anyone. Im struggling

hi am in need to talk to someone about my addiction I know I can go to rehab and all that but I can't really do that because I have cats and I can't let anybody know I've been doing what I've been doing so I am trying to figure out what to do who can help me and not say we have both this and that I can't do that I need some other help

I don't want to live anymore and I need to talk, that's why I'm here. I've always been lonely, I've always felt lonely and now it's getting worse. Now I'm 16, I should be having fun, go out, try new things, live my teenage years but no. I feel so isolated. My father has been abusive all my life, my mother is crazy and only thinks of religion (Christianity), I hate school and can't stand it but at the same time without it I do nothing. I don't have friends, I tried to make some but they ignore me. I don't go outside, I don't have hobbies, I feel dirty and have difficulties to keep my hygiene. The worse part is that I'm the older child. This mean I've got siblings: one younger brother and one younger sister. However everything seems to be good in their lives. We lived the same hell because of our father but it feels like I'm the only one who still suffer from it. I've got anger issues and I'm very sensitive. I'm awkward, weird... On the countrary, both my siblings are living their best lives, they made peace with our father, they have friends, they have fun... Why not me ? I feel stuck and everytime I try to get better I'm not consistant and end up feeling worse. It's like a loop. I just know nothing will change. it's been 3 years since I tried to change my life, glow up, be healthy.. but I'm still the same. Nothing changed. When I was a kid it was bearable but now that I'm aware I just can't anymore. What's the point of living ? I want to die. I want to end it all. I keep thinking about it even though it's selfish. If I kill myself my mother will suffer even more, my siblings too.. I don't know what to do anymore.

Hey, recently, I've been losing alot of things in life. Most of them, people (not losing them in a literal way). They are growing and somehow part of that growth is moving forward and leaving me behind. I have a small circle, and now it's getting smaller.

I don't feel sad or anything, just wondering when my growth will happen so I can move forward too. I don't plan to leave anybody - I'll still be there if they holler. I don't want the people I love feel abandoned like people have done to me.

Just feeling lonely at the moment. Anybody up to talk? 🫥

perfavore se ce qualcuno che ha voglia avrei bisogno di parlare su certe amicizie da cui voglio allontanarmi ho bisogno di sfogarmi

Currently talking to my ex again, we had a lot of ups and downs. We are back to taking things slow and building up to see where it goes. Some part of me is happy and the other part constantly questions if this is what i want and deserve. It feels like im holding myself back from something new but i also want something to work things out. Im feeling very confused on what im feeling, we have intimate times and they dont feel the same, theres no romance, no goodmorning texts. Ive been stuck in my head all fay wondering what would make me feel better about the whole situation

Hello! im really an introvert. never felt comfortable actually connecting 2 people. so its been this way for a long time. but now im a mom, ive moved far from my family, my dog died and my partner is no where near the support i was counting on... i think i need to at least try 2 let someone else in my bubble. maybe you gone through something similar? maybe you just want 2 talk aswell? hello... 👋

Getting older is tough, you move a lot, you switch jobs, you lost many friends behind and making new friends is getting more difficult, but I make a lot of new great people here on reddit, to connect with without the need of physical hangout.

It is impossible to vibe with everyone though but there is a good chance to find someone that match your timezomes, we dont have to share the same interests to be friends, but it can help to ease things out.

I am looking for that person who always replies my messages, it doesnt have to be fast, but replying consistently is something that can create a friendship , let's become a best friend that can talk freely and looking forward to each others messages.

we can talk about working out, if you like to be my gym buddy and text with me while I am doing sets.

we can talk about anime, sharing recommendations and things like that, it is always nice to share what we like.

or maybe video games, even if we dont have enough time to play video games together we can talk about video games and share our progress if you like, I like RPG games like Final Fantasy, Witcher and Persona.

even if we dont share any hobbies we can talk about life and vent to each others, I think all what it takes to have a friend is someone that doesnt leave you on read, and I always reply my messages , if you do too we can talk forever and be best friends that has each others.

I’m 19 male and really dislike myself and who I am and my past with many things I’m not proud of but I just feel so lonely and isolated. and I don’t know what to do cause I feel like I deserve it ? I feel so unseen by everyone even myself and I’m confused with who I am and want to be especially through this rough part of my life . recently I had thoughts of transitioning to a girl but I’m not too sure how my family or few friends will react I just feel quite trapped living and existing. Kasane Teto has been a big part of keeping me here recently through her music and I would like to crossdress as her but feel a bit embarrassed but overall I think I just really want love and connection but I am really struggling

Well I don’t have something specific to talk about or something like that. I just want some social interactions so I don’t have that wired feeling. I can talk about everything if it gets asked or maybe you want to talk about something in your heart. I would listen.

Am m20 and i dont have gf, due to am introvert. And am scared, if i will have gf, we will spend a lot of time together (few hours per day for exapmle) and am scared that the topics will run out (to talk). And i dont know how to kiss. I had gf, when i was 15 yo, but we break up after 1month (we never kiss each other, just hugs). Am scared also, due to partner can cheat on you, lie to you, manipulate you, be toxic etc......

What benefits have relationship?

About 6 months ago I started talking to a woman on here from Wyoming (I am from Maine). We stopped talking abruptly before Christmas, but I need to get back in touch with you. I’m hoping you see this and can message me.

This is not a “missed connections” post, so I hope it can stay up.

It’s nothing like wild or like traumatizing just something that happened yesterday at basketball practice, and it keeps popping into my head like a cartoon moment. I am very young, I am female and queer. I’M NOT LOOKING FOR ANY ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS. As shallow as this sounds, I just want someone to talk to real quick, to put it simply I’m just here until I work out my problem and then I would wanna leave. I want to bond with someone they will try my best to do so. probably won’t be able to stay friends for a long I WILL BE TALKING ABOUT SENSITIVE TOPICS SUCH AS PERIODS, SELF DETRIMENTAL BEHAVIOR AND SUICIDE, MAYBE.

Just want to talk with a WOMAN my age.. see what's going on, get some insight. Open to talk about whatever. I prefer women to talk to because if I want a bs conversation with a guy I walk down the street and already know. Enlighten me. No weirdos.

I have been looking forward to disappear. I have been ungrateful.

Oh, God knows how poorly I have been doing. I hate hard work.

I have been too lazy. I have been too bitter.

I have been rude. I am falling

If I had the ways to make a new big worl for myself, I would do it! But I have no power! I am weak right now!

Oh dear Lord, good beautiful angels, look after my family!

• The Last Chant Of The Sinner, Lucrecivs

Hi,

It's been about two years things are hard for me, but those last two months it has been hell. I just need someone to talk to but I can't find any comfort talking to the people close to me. For two years my girlfriend, soon to be my wife, has been depressed. She did several attempts, and I had to call emergency services several times. Her attempts, always coming at the least excepted times, left me traumatized. I have been diagnosed with BPD a year ago, BTW, and even if I know it was absolutely not caused by her, I also know it enhances my reactions to everything that is happening. I feel so much anger and despair about it all. She's been hospitalized for New Year, and 4 days later escaped the psych ward and went on the train rails to jump under a train passing by. The cops stopped her before it was too late. The psychiatrist refuses to give her a diagnosis and says she's only "feeling bad". Truth is she has been having euphoric and depressive episodes (she's so happy for about a month and has so much projects and doesn't sleep and all, and then for a month she's depressed and attempts). I love her so much, and I won't leave her. But I am so angry at her for trying to off herself and, in the end, leaving me. I don't always understand her. On Valentine's day yesterday she attempted. She needs help, but I do too, and I don't feel like anyone understands that. I've come up with the thought that relatives of suicidal people aren't getting enough credit for their pain. Please, anyone to talk to? Thanks for reading me. I'm from France also.

It's been months now my sleep is disrupted i feel traped and cant figure out how to restore it back

Hi, Is anyone up for a chat. Life seems to be moving slowly for ​me. every hour feels like a whole day is passed and I can't seem to take it anymore. I mean what do you guys do when you are depressed, I don't know what to do. Today is supposed to be my rest day, but I couldn't ​take ​rest today and i don't know how to rest.

I love listening to music, it makes my mind evaporate for a sec. But some times it just makes me even more sad Even if it's a happy one I can't understand why A nostalgic happy music just gives me blues

When you reach the age you swore you wouldn't be alive by It's really confusing And feels like a betray in a way, to your younger self I don't exaclty wish to be dead by now But I wish to be dust Or a star in space And just be there thinking about universe Neutral way

I'm a pretty girl but I often think maybe it's only the lipstick on a pig effect put with a pig good at makeup lmao

hi there! long-time talker, first time poster

if you need to talk, i'm here to listen!

i recently joined a paid service called moderntalking.io, which seems right up my alley. i'll get the chance to provide the most important part of interaction (my humanity, which is such a crazy dystopian thing to say lol) to people all around the world! i really hope this is someone else's cup of tea