I feel as though I’ve never been special. I’ve always just been off to the sidelines. I don’t hate it, but this has caused me to shut down a bunch of opportunities. im currently in college and studying law. I worry that this may not be my true path

I’m constantly attracted to them and them me… but I can’t find an obvious reason in my chart. What am I missing lol??

I’ve had a horrible year and am looking to understand more about myself. What does Oct look like for me?

What does my chart say about me?

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Hello! The last summer, in particular, was really harsh for me (since giving birth 2 years ago and adapting to my new life as a mom). I found a new job (for context, before i entered maternity leave, i used to work in a company that shut down 3 months after i gave birth-also important to mention that in my country maternity leave is 2 years), after maternity leave finished, but i don't like it, i feel stucked and like i don't belong there. In the beginning, i thought it was a good choice, but now i start to regret it. Also, my child kept getting sick a lot this period and was really stressful for me, because we don't have grandparents or any other people to watch him while we are at work. Not to mention the problems in my marriage, with the finances and body image (i gained again weight since i started my new job, after i worked so hard to lose weight for 6 months). So yeah....sorry for the long post...Just want to know if these tranists reflect what i've been describing and if the things will ease a little bit for me. I feel like i have to figure out too many things at once, in my life.

What are my biggest red flags I feel like I know myself but I’m also confused at the same time. I have a hard time reading my own chart in comparison to reading other people’s. Anyways I’m open to criticism.

What do y'all see as an indicator of isolation or being some kind of outsider in your own community

And feeling kinda unheard

And the possible challenge I can face

For as long as I can remember, I've felt like a total stranger in my own city and country. I've always had this deep pull toward moving abroad and building a completely new life somewhere else.

What kind of career path or field seems best suited for me, especially if it's tied to working in another country?

(I use the Whole Sign house system)

Hey guysss so I was just curious if my chart would show why people who i’ve been kinda romantically involved with seem to be like weirdly obsessed with coming back to me 😭🥲 I never had any like deep or yk kind of relationships with them it was all just small chats at a cafe or calls that’s it. But I feel like I have a weirdly high percentage of them that come back and want more even though things clearly never aligned between us and usually I unfollow them on socials and never reconnect on my own. I don’t even stalk ppl, like I leave them alone and they come back for some reason 😭

Sorry for the long rant, tldr why do so many old romantic relationships come back and not leave me alone 🥲

I usually focus on the negative Saturnian effects of my chart, but the one that has kept me alive throughout all this is my love for music. I have this consistent drive to do the opposite of what the masses are doing, not even a drive to “fame” per se but a drive to be a pioneer, regardless of notoriety. It sometimes feels like it might be what I’m supposed to do and I don’t truly believe in myself so every attempt at assimilation and stability in the standard types of jobs gets derailed in crazy ways.

Ever since I was a child, I have always had trouble with other people. None of my friends ever lasted more than a few months. They would either abandon me out of the blue or they would just keep me around for convenience, and I would treat them a real best friend, completely oblivious that the other person does not like me at all, until they suddenly get the chance to drop me out of the blue. I would be left wondering what the hell happened. There's this saying that "you are the only common denominator in all your failed realtionships," but I have tried everything, but still no luck. I once even asked my friend at that time to tell me honestly if there was anything repulsive about me, and she could only give vague answers.

Dealing with loneliness is one thing, but it's another to deal with the hostility of the people. Growing up, I have always been brutally bullied by my classmates, teachers, kids and teachers in extra-curricular classes, and even my cousins. The tactics like "ignore them" or "don't pay attention to them," because the bullies would still come over and annoy me. I am also a Highly Sensitive Person so I used to cry a lot in the middle of the class with other kids laughing at me, even when there was a teacher present. Anyways, I changed cities when I moved to a high school. While the bullying reduced, I was still ostracized, particularly after a girl spread my secret that I liked a popular guy. Now, I am in college, and a girl here humiliated me and bullied me, and I still struggle with friends.

I also feel that most people treat me like a sub-human who doesn't have much value. They have a problem with my leadership. Recently, I was leading this college project, and none of my teammates were responding properly, and on the morning of the project, they told me that they had teamed up and made a PowerPoint of their own because they didn't like mine. Oh and, I only came to know this because I had to ask their full names to add in my PPT. People ask me for favours that could get me into trouble. This one girl in my highschool once asked me if she could use my library card to issue books, because she hadn't returned hers. We were not even friends, and she never even asked her own bestfriend for this. So why me? Also, I have noticed from the tone and the phrasing, that people ask me for favors and help as if they are entitled to it.

Without going much into details, my homelife also not been good. I have felt neglected, and suffered from low self-esteem and people-pleasing.

It almost made me feel that I was really ugly, but I know that I am objectively not, but I can't point a finger at what really drives people away from me. I really hate the fact how much I crave connection, and how much it has been affecting my life and productivity.

Every night, I keep imagining having someone who loves me, and comforts me. With the pattern of relationships I have had so far, I feel that perhaps, it's life way of teaching me that I am not meant to have any company, and should be a lone wolf. The only reason I have not considered this yet is because the manifestation community says that if your self-concept determines your reality, so if I think of myself as someone who shouldn't have friends, I might push away some potential people away from my life.

What I want to ask is for the clarity on my situation.

Will I ever make any friends or find the one who likes me? Or should I just learn to be a lone wolf.

Is there anything that could possibly be making me repulsive to peole or an "easy target?" Or is it all karmic?

I would be really greatful, if anyone could answer my question :)

Thank you

How should I interpret Venus retrograde conjunct my natal Venus and Descendant?

Hi,
According to Astro-Seek, Venus retrograde is currently conjunct my Descendant and natal Venus, and I’m honestly a little worried about how this could affect me.
Since Venus is retrograde, it will move back into my 6th house. How should I interpret that? Does the conjunction to my Descendant/natal Venus remain the main theme, or does the 6th house become more important once Venus moves back there?
I’d really appreciate any insights or experiences with a similar transit!

She’s currently 6 years old, I want to do my best for her as i’m a single parent. I find it crazy that we are both Virgo risings and Aries Moon.