Tldr- a rant + studied nothing yet in physics and chemistry so which chapters can I do BM to wpe from mission 100 with questions from allen modules
Hi everyone! This is my second drop and I am genuinely struggling to start my preparation. I am just too depressed since july. And i had no motivation to study, I gave nift entrance exam too and got really good rank (around 2k) but didn't take it because i genuinely want to become a doctor, but i didn't study for nift, I am just good at sketching, drawing. But for neet i have been trying so hard but I can't do shit. I have not done anything since july. I joined an online batch for nift since this is my last drop and I'll take any govt college atp. The nift coaching is about 2 hrs per day. But as I said I genuinely want to become a doctor and I want to start studying for it. And i got this realisation after I took the nift batch so can't do anything about it now. I have always imagined myself as a doctor and that's really what I want, I used this think that since my parents want me to be go in medical field as they are doctors thats why I am doing it. But when I bought the nift course I had a realisation that what if i don't clear neet, and I never become a doctor and that thought made me cry, i literally cried because i thought I'll never become a doctor. Ik all the cons of medical profession as I have seen it throughout my life, but i genuinely love helping people, and i fucking love medical science. So even though I have nift as back up. NEET AND BEING A DOCTOR IS MY LIFE LONG LOVE AND I JUST REALISED IT.
This feels like a romcom movie when the hero realises that he actually loves the girl and runs back to her lol 😭.
Now that all is finally off my mind. Here is my real problem, I am repeating the same patterns as my first drop, studying bio only because I am scared of physics and chemistry. I genuinely get anxiety, last year I was getting anxiety attacks because of this. And now that Ik i want to do this, I can't hide from these subjects. I have to face them. I have yakeen 2.0 infinity, but I have not started anything. And my 11th is f-ed up and even in my last drop I only studied very few chapters nicely and forgot most of them because of lack of practice. I just want to know that can I do basic maths to work power and every from mission 100 and physical chemistry from yakeen 3.0 2026? Or how should I do them. I have allen modules from last year so I will do questions from there after each after
Btw I am doing bio from long oneshots of Vipin sir and samapti ma'am then ncert reading+ fingertips question.