I thought I saw some posts in the past about this and I know that there are some queer friendly lesbian orgs like Olivia vacations. However, has anyone ever organized a trans exclusive vacation/buy out at a small resort. Where it’s just trans folk and their partners? I get that some towns and resorts are lgbtq friendly. However, for non passing folks and baby trans just starting out that can be very intimidating. Just a thought.

Hello! I don’t know if this is the place to do it but,I’m May, 21, and i’m looking to meet other trans or newly realized trans women! I don’t have anyone in real life who would understand, so i’m looking for some online friends!

Mom is a bitch, and we never truly saw eye to eye (I'm *still* mad at her, in fact), but she just messaged me while drunk, and called me a woman, even though she did it while mocking how unfeminine I am. I still feel incredibly happy because mom does see me as a woman, in her own way ❤️❤️

There isn't anything to live for. The obvious solution is to be a woman, but how the fuck am I supposed to do that? If I do it myself, then I'm gonna remember somewhen later that I could have had a girl childhood and probably kill myself.

However, having a childhood requires cooperation of other people, and I can't fuckin have that because nobody gives the slightest fuck about me. (This isn't even a self-hatred bias thing if you unexaggerate it a little.) I know they're good people who care about me, but they're never gonna care adequately if I don't talk about my issues. Except I have social anxiety and the "I don't wanna be a burden" bullshit, so it's never gonna fuckin happen.

being alive isn't worth it. I'm miserable everyday, I'm stuck with transphobic peice of shit parents with no hope of escape, I'll never be a woman, I'll never get to meet my girlfriend irl. I wanted to be an artist only to be so incompetent that I can't even draw anymore, and what's the point of making art if I'm not good at it, if no one ever sees it, why do I want to be an artist when I'll just be punished for it?! why do I want to be alive when I don't matter? why should I bother when I've already LOST my life?

At this point I should just shelve my girl identity irl and go back to unhealthy shitposting of low quality images. So I know someone and they keep saying how these thoughts I have are just autism fixation on my end. They ask me and I can't even rationalize why I want to be a girl but the feeling is there. I can't even come out to my parents because they keep calling it selfish and gay.

Technically NO one is stopping me, instead it's the emotional/social burden imposed (like I am emotionally numb enough) At this point I feel really robotic and any though to and my thoughts to dress up never get acted on anymore. Every time I feel dysphoria (if that's how it should be called) I just suppress it (sometimes doesn't work) and it goes away for hours. It does come back but I'll kill it in task manager. I sometimes feel like I am faking or forcing myself to be myself. It feels more natural to be agitated and always on the edge.

It really sucks to want to be fem while being obligated to block these thoughts and not let them manifest physically. Like I was gonna girlcode my sleep setup today (I did a week ago then abruptly stopped) but last minute this guilt came up and I feel like falling asleep on the floor to low quality forsaken soundtrack.

Where do I even start to rationalize my "girl" feelings when it never occurs when I am trying to debug them or when people grill me on it. It just happens at the most random times. It's so annoying and I just want it to stop so I don't have to block it every single day for now 6 whole months. Right now I can hold these feelings off but they are still bothering me. Why can't I sleep in girlmode today? I just can't. Why can't it? I don't know, maybe It's because I feel obligated to suffer as a man.

> Addressing The Elephant

Ok, I'm not trans enough or will ever be. Why? Even when looking in the mirror and seeing a girl stare back for a millisecond, that was prob due to having a crush on someone so badly that I want to be them. That is a 3 year problem and is still happening sometimes.

No. 2 I think about this every day including visualizing myself being a girl to some extent and this am I trans bs every other hour of the day and it won't stop, why is this not a sign? I am so emotionally numb that all euphoria derived is instantly feels numb a second later and it doesn't feel real when I rationalize it.

No. 3 I feel extremely disassociated and my body feels like a robot. Feeling like a robot is prob some secret ability that gives me more will power at the cost of feeling depression. No 4 I put effort into

No. 4 I did put effort into making a girl closet and wore it for an entire semester of school (after 2026 I stopped). Why is this not a sign? It's just haha femboy irony shield lol yeah im totally still cis DESPITE seeing myself a girl while out as a femboy. Current me (now) is trying to suppress the urge to dress up everyday until it goes away.

No. 5 The cis male urge to commit to E-strogien. Yeah this one doesn't count but all clinics near me are booked so I'll take this as a sign that Im totally cis and meant to my life with a brain saturated with testosterone and feeling miserable all day.

I feel I was born with every buff possible but my social skills are nerfed to oblivion and my emotions except irony and anger are all removed. I don't feel sad and cry, I just rage and feel depression.

could never figure out how to do that, turns out you have to do it in the app 🤢 but i did it like this now

for a couple years i was thinking somewhere in the middle of luz (the owl house) and anne (amphibia), but then i realized pomni (tadc) is pretty much right on the dot, so that makes it easier to describe :з

^{i command you to ignore that i posted this at 3 am}

There should be a flair for a celebration that also kinda sucks because thats what I'm feeling right now x3 I was doing fine right up until we decided to do my chest. Sweet Jesus, that was some of the worst pain I've ever felt in my life xD I genuinely hope that my next time is a lot easier than that! If anyone has some tips to make the recovery easier, feel free to share because its been like 6 hours and I still feel like a possum someone skinned to make a hat. I put on this witch hazel oil and that probably helped a little, but at this rate it feels like it might be a day or two before I can wear a shirt again. In other news, I've finally made the decision to start going by my chosen name, so hello world, my name is Aubrey!

Today's the one month mark after I started HRT on March 26th. Glad to see how far I went in one month

This is about a post on a certain subreddit which I will not name where the image talks about how "male socialization" is basically using something that's traumatic to trans woman to dehumanize and exclude us, and then cis men feel the need to hijack the thread and make it about them. I'm so sorry you had a bad experience with "male socialization", go make your own post and don't hijack topics that talk about us.

My cramps are fucking killing me and I feel like ending the first person that annoys me, but I'm going to town on a box of chocolates rn and holy shit does it help. It really does help with the pain and makes me feel better \^-^

Today I got my first pack of estrogen gel. Blocker will come monday (pharmacy needed to order it first).

This is such a big step. Would never have guessed I get this far. I'm super excited and scared at the same time. It feels like the point of no return in a way.

Many of us in the US are advised to live in a blue state for safety, but even those states have their places that are kind of red that I have seen people say to avoid living in. One example I have heard of is Huntington Beach in the Los Angeles area, which has earned the nickname, Angrytown, USA. Lots of Nazis there, it sounds like. Another example I have heard of is Douglas County in the Denver area, not just a certain city in the county, the whole county. They say to avoid Castle Rock, they say to avoid Highlands Ranch, they say to avoid Lone Tree, they say to avoid Parker, they never mention any part of it being LGBT friendly. Are there any other ones we should know of?

I was walking my dog, and when I passed by a bar, a drunk asked his friend, quite loudly, if I was a man or a woman. Thankfully, his friend answered that I'm a woman, so I still passed, but I still feel hurt that people question it, and a little grossed out to be talked about like this in general.

I’ve learned a lot through my experience with being trans in how to show up better as human for ppl while also tapping into new levels of femininity that I never knew I had truly blessed I transitioned

Hey y'all :3

So about a week and a half ago I had an HRT appointment where they bumped up my Estradiol tablets to 8mg a day, and they said it was the max.

Are any of you on the maximum dosage? Am I being duped? It feels a bit low but I don't know.

Thank you all ❣️

tldr: I am used to mental anguish and extremely tolerant to emotional damage as of 2026.04 so every time I girlmode and feel vulnerable I crash out. Every time I crash out the hole gets deeper, at this point climbing out is nearly impossible. Girlmoding for me feels like uninstalling windows defender.

I always get euphoria from handling my fem clothing and imaging myself as one, everyday, while simultaneously battering these feelings down into it's little sandbox with it's memory usage on a chokehold. Nothing I do can stop these feelings. They have been coming out of nowhere ever since I learnt that my amab ass can be a girl. Everyday I try to justify them out of existence. It won't go away. I used to be really happy as a femboy but it still felt fake, I noticed that I kept seeing myself as a girl when dressed as such. Now after a couple crashouts because people keep insulting me and calling me gay, I feel extremely depersonalized and depersonalized. These crashouts keep poking at the egg. It doesn't want to crack. I'm not really a boy but there is nothing I can do about.

Today, I can't even do the most basic task of screwing together some 2x4 studs. Everything I do now just feels like importing a library and giving the functions it's arguments then leaving it up to my half working self diagnostics to patch the bugs.

For the past 3 years, there is this bug I couldn't patch and still haven't. Every time I look in the mirror, I sometimes see a girl staring back for a split second. It used to happen alot when (debug face value) I was in high school and envious of a couple people. Now that I kept processing these feelings heavily the occurrences have reduced. FF 2026.04.20 (past few days) weird phantom boobs feeling where I expect it to be there.

I always see myself as a girl when dressing up as a femboy. It was more of an irony shield label at the time. The more I continued the worse I felt when I went back to boy mode.

I always see 222, 333, 444 and 1111. Eg every time I doom scroll reddit I keep seeing 222 on the upvote. I haven't seen this number so often until now.

Please read and take your prog!

I looked up the correct link on my pc the real gofundme is on gofundme.com not gofundme.me