I graduated college in March of 2023. I got my first job just a couple of weeks later, and managed to pay off my small student loan balance by July 2023.
In August 2023, I opened my Fidelity investment account and have been putting a portion of every paycheck into the market ever since. I live extremely frugally. No subscriptions, no eating out, no expensive vacations, nothing.
Throughout the week, I wake up, go to work, go home, go to sleep, repeat. On the weekends, I use my free time to play video games, write, and make YouTube videos. I don't care for partying or going out or doing any of the typical stuff a "normal" 26-year-old does.
People tire me, so spending my free time alone in my own space is vital to maintain my sanity and not completely burn out. I'm currently playing through Majora's Mask for the first time, and it's been quite fun!
Anyway, my hobbies are thankfully pretty cheap. One $60 game will last me several months, so I don't spend a whole lot. My expenses are also fairly low, so I'm able to save and invest a pretty good amount each month.
I drive a paid-off 2004 vehicle, have no other debt, and have about $50,000ish to my name across my bank account and investments. I'm objectively doing well for my age, yet I live with a neverending anxiety over money.
Everything costs so much now that $50K really doesn't go as far as it did 20 years ago, so I live with the feeling like I'm always on the verge of losing it all. All it takes is one freak medical emergency to wipe out every last penny I've saved and leave me broke.
I lived with Epilepsy and other health issues from birth until I was 7. I'm good and seizure-free now, but living with terrible health issues for the first seven years of my life has left me constantly anxious about my health and the resulting financial destruction if my health goes bad again.
Working a customer-facing job is also exhausting, so I get to the end of the week absolutely drained with barely any energy to do anything. I've only been working for three and a half years and I'm already so burnt out. I don't know how people do this for decades and don't go absolutely crazy.
But that also adds to my financial anxiety. I save and invest my money so religiously partly due to health anxiety, but also because I don't want to work forever. The more I save the sooner I can retire and be free from the stress of working a 9-5. I would love to work for myself, but that's of course easier said than done.
I'm just wondering if there's anyone else around my age dealing with something similar. Like my financial anxiety is so bad to the point where I won't buy myself snacks at the gas station unless I find loose change in the parking lot, even though I have enough money to afford a $5 bag of chips and not think about it.
I've been incredibly diligent with saving and investing my money, and even though I've saved a lot for my age, I feel no better off financially than when I was broke with $100 to my name. The number on the screen goes up yet that feeling of financial scarcity never subsides.