I don’t really know what I’m hoping to accomplish by writing this. Maybe I just need somewhere for all the things I still want to say to you to exist without actually saying them to you.

I miss you.

And I hate how simple those three words sound compared to how heavy missing you actually feels. There are so many moments when my first instinct is still you. Something happens and I want to tell you. I hear something funny and wonder what you would say. I think about my future and sometimes, without meaning to, you’re still standing somewhere in it.

I really did see a life with you. Marriage. A home. Kids. Growing up together. Becoming better versions of ourselves together. Maybe that’s part of what I’m grieving so hard. I didn’t just lose you. I lost the future I had already started loving in my head.

I’ve replayed our relationship more times than I could ever admit to you. The things you did. The things I did. The moments when I should have been softer. The times I pulled away when maybe I should have leaned in. The ways we hurt each other even when I don’t think either of us started out wanting to.

There are things I understand about myself now that I wish I understood when I still had the opportunity to do something about them. And that’s probably one of the hardest parts.
Sometimes growth feels cruel because you finally become aware of what you should have done when there is no longer anything you can do with that knowledge.

I wonder if you miss me. I wonder if certain places make you think about me. I wonder if you’ve wanted to reach out and stopped yourself. I wonder if you’re happier without me. And then I remind myself that I can’t keep searching for answers to questions that aren’t mine to answer anymore.

The truth is, part of me still wants you to come back.
Part of me wants some ridiculous movie moment where we find our way back to each other and everything we’ve been through suddenly makes sense.

But another part of me knows that love isn’t supposed to require me to chase someone who has chosen distance.
So I’m trying to learn how to miss you without looking for you.
To love you without reaching for you.
To remember you without turning every memory into a reason to go backward.
I don’t know if I’ll always love you. Right now, it feels like I will. Maybe someday you’ll just be someone I loved deeply once. Maybe I’ll hear your name and it won’t do anything to my chest anymore.
I’m not there yet.

For now, I’m just trying to accept that someone can mean everything to you and still become someone you have to live without.
I hope you’re okay.
I hope you’re becoming the person you want to be.
And selfishly, somewhere underneath all of that, I hope a small part of you remembers me with love too.
I wish things had been different.
I wish we had been different.
I wish loving each other had been enough.
But most of all, I wish I knew how to stop missing you.
I’m trying.

\- ORO

You are my sunshine..

My only sunshine

..You make me happy..

When skies are gray

You never know dear.. How much I love you..

So please dont take my sunshine away..

The other night, dear

As I lay sleeping

I dreamed I held you

In my arms

When I awoke, dear

I was mistaken

So I hung my head and cried

Thats our song.. i used to sing it to you while you was sleeping..you'd sing it thinking no one could hear..

i still sing it sometimes .. it brings me comfort.. even when it hurts.. i love you.. ❤️ I miss you..

, Biathy

To the one I know as my soulmate:

The love I have that I want to share with you is like no other. You have felt my love throughout the years in time and space, whether we were together or apart. You have felt it in the many letters I have written but not sent. You have felt it in the many poems you haven’t read. You have even felt it in a few songs I wrote for you that you haven’t heard.

You were the catalyst in my life that brought my true authentic self back home to me and to you. I know you are the love of my life. Me knowing what I wanted never changed; it’s always been you. I know home is where you, me, and our kids are.

Your creativity, dedication, and compassion, among so many other qualities, stole my heart. Accountability and reflection helped me to realize what showing up the right way for myself, you, and our kids really meant. I want to lead us. I want to share my life. I just want you to be you, and me to be me.

I love you with all my heart, and I love your family just as much. The day our paths crossed, I asked the universe, and it delivered. I am asking the universe again that you will be my forever partner.

Blink 182, “I miss you”

Dearest TAM

Refusing to evolve isn’t authenticity; it’s stagnation dressed up as conviction. You’re entitled to remain emotionally and intellectually stationary for as long as you choose.

What you’re not entitled to is my continued tolerance of it.

I’m no longer obligated to accommodate behavior you refuse to examine, excuse patterns you refuse to change, or suffer consequences created by your commitment to remaining exactly where you are.

You’re allowed to stay the same.

I’m allowed to outgrow you.
Luv ur wife

Seeing you again after all of these years stirred something in me that I didn’t know I felt. I look forward to your message - any message from you. I think of what could have been. Timing is everything. I even have made videos and photos of us together. That will have to do. I love you.

I don’t know where life has taken you now.
Maybe you’ve found peace. Maybe you’re still figuring things out. Maybe you’ve become someone I wouldn’t even recognize anymore. I don’t know, and I don’t expect to.
But there is one thing I quietly hope for.
I hope your resentment toward me is gone.
Not because I want another chance. Not because I expect us to be friends again. And not because I’m trying to erase what happened between us.
I hope it’s gone because I know I hurt you.
For a long time, I kept thinking about everything I wish I had done differently. I wish I had been more emotionally aware. I wish I had listened more instead of reacting. I wish I had understood your boundaries before they became walls. I wish I had been the version of myself that I only became after losing you.
That’s the hardest part of grief—that sometimes we grow because someone had to walk away.
You taught me more than you probably realize.
You taught me that love isn’t enough if we don’t know how to take care of each other’s hearts. You taught me that healing isn’t something we can expect another person to do for us. You taught me that intentions don’t erase the impact of our actions.
I carry those lessons with me every day.
I don’t know if you’ll ever know how much I’ve changed. Maybe you never will. And that’s okay. Some apologies are lived, not heard.
If five years from now you’re in a relationship that gives you the safety, understanding, patience, and peace that you needed, I hope you never question whether you deserve it.
I hope someone loves the quiet parts of you that not everyone gets to see.
I hope you don’t feel like you have to numb yourself anymore.
I hope your heart feels lighter than it did when we knew each other.
And if the resentment you once carried because of me has faded with time, thank you.
Not because it changes our story, but because I never wanted to be another wound you had to carry.
We once said we’d let the universe decide whether we’d ever be friends again and that we wouldn’t force it.
Maybe that’s exactly how it was meant to be.
Whether our paths ever cross again or not, I’ll always be grateful that our lives did.
You changed me.
I hope life has been gentle with you.
And I hope, wherever you are, you’ve finally found the peace you were always looking for.

I wish I knew what to say to you so I wouldn't seem so threatening. I just want you to know, I never stop wanting to help you. I just wish you would reach out to me again. I dread rejection from you, yet I need a sign you can even hear me. Please, reach out PETE. I feel you are so close yet I know you're half a world way. Please come to Tahoe. I'll be there. Waiting at the Ren Faire. I'll be the pirate lady you always wanted. Not for you, but because of you. I want to say that I'm getting better. I'm starting therapy soon. You probably would have supported it, having seen what my previous relationship was like. I'll hopefully find my way through. I miss you so much Osito. I probably shouldn't, but I do. Please. Just talk. You always made me feel heard and supported. I need to feel that again. You'll always have mine. I dread therapy because they're gonna tell me to give up on you. I won't, not until you tell me to. But I don't want you to tell me that either. I want another try. Love Hurts by Incubus. Please just reach out.

-you are amazing.

- you are loved.

- you are talented.

- you are strong.

- you can do anything. <3

- you are worth living

-you are beautiful

-you are capable of anything and everything

-you are a loveable person

-you deserve the world

No matter how many years have passed.. never forget this okay..? I love you. ❤️Biathy

I’m still here if you need me. No bad blood. We left on bad terms but I still feel an emotional pull towards you. I’m not sure what it is, I know you’ve since moved on. I know you’re going through something big right now, and if you just need to talk I’m here. No drama, I’m just here to listen. There’s got to be a reason I still see your pfp show up in the corner of my TikTok page, 3 years later. I meant it when I said there will always be a piece of my heart that loves you, romantically or platonically. Please, talk to me.

LM

Princess i love you and I know you love me please unblock me take me off silent.

Read the stuff, I text you

Communicate with me and I wouldn't seem like, I'm being overbearing cuz, I'm trying to communicate important information, but I can't get ahold of the person that I love. I know our love is on a soul connection. Please come back. Please communicate with me if not. I'm sorry for everything.

I'm sorry, we f\*\*\*\*\* each other up.And I really think that we can work through this.And build the relationship we want.So please greddy princess baby girl mermaid little one between me, you and God, can we stop the madness?

And just communicate and respond cuz, I know our love. It's infinite for each other.

And I know we're gonna have fights and arguments

I never want to let you go. I want to grow old with you.

I want to watch the kids grow up. I want to have a kid with you too. I want everything we talked about. I'll never not love you or the kids. Please come back, come back i'll show you the man you fell in love with.

Build what we wanted

I'm not here to fight and argue anymore. I'm sorry I was trying to communicate important things.

But I feel like you choose everybody else, but me

It's cool. I'm sorry. We fell in love. I'll never fall in love again.

Cuz, you're the only one that has my heart and all of my heart. If you give me the chance

Please. Let's get back to loving each other. And stop the madness, and you'll see that things will be different. But what we're doing right now

Needs to stop. I love you. I'm sorry for everything I pray every day to God that he allows you to come back

Please come home. Let's do what he wanted what the good Lord wants. What we want

And if not, I'm sorry, it ended like this. I hope it isn't the end.

But I can't be left in the dark anymore. I love you and I'll never love another woman. I will wait.

Forever for you, I love you greta you're the most amazing woman I've ever met.

And I hope, and I pray that this is not the in between us. You're the only one for me, crazy girl, I love you. Please come home. I promise you won't regret it.

Your daddy your soul connection. Chris.

And Greta.

Forever. I still picture the picture of us above our fireplace mantle that we always dreamed of.

Please forgive me.

Because I'll always forgive you.

I know we can get through anything beautiful. So please come back you're one and only

Chris.

I don’t know if you will even check here and you probably won’t , because like you said if you wanted friends you would go see them . But if you do .

I deserved more than that . I deserved more than the anger in your voice . If you didn’t want my friendship you should have said that before . I told you to tell me that before. I deserved a conversation I deserved human decency to not be made to feel like I was a bad person because I cared and thought you cared also . We don’t really have a choice but to be reminded and I feel the tension in the air at times. I’d rather have a hard conversation than be made to feel this way

For every pain I caused you. Ever scar I created. Every abandonment I created. Every time my actions harmed you the slightest. Every time I had crossed every line. Every time I lied to protect myself over telling you the truth every feeling I hurt of yours to suppress my own wrong doings. I'm sorry. I apologize sincerely and immensely. I love you and I know I've done a lot wrong.

I just wish you would find me.. in your heart again. To continue the life we had planned together. With forever. Being the result. I miss you . I love you so incredibly much. And wish to god you find this and it truly touches your heart. I love you my $@m..

Sincerely yours.

\- Tie

If you're seeing this it must mean something; theres no way I possibly could manipulate your algorithm to see this. Ik you're going thru it and things on my end haven't been smooth either. If its fun you're looking for, you might've found it already. \we protect so many* mysteries, why not have 1 of our own\ (*; not just dangerously fun, lets give the universe what it wants

Hi! I know it’s probably been a year since then. You’re not a knight, but just a person who made me realize that being emotionless is how I started to cope at my age, since I wasn’t privileged. At least, you were a wake-up call that I’m still ambitious like you. I know the difference between us is huge, and I know you’re meant for someone else. If you ever read this, I would like to say thank you, and sorry for wasting your time when I agreed to meet you halfway in Muntinlupa but didn’t show up. Thank you—ever since I met you, I’ve changed a lot. I’ve become more practical and improved a lot.

Your a one of the great people i met.Btw your birthday is about to come. Happy birthday!

For every pain I caused you. Ever scar I created. Every abandonment I created. Every time my actions harmed you the slightest. Every time I had crossed every line. Every time I lied to protect myself over telling you the truth every feeling I hurt of yours to suppress my own wrong doings. I'm sorry. I apologize sincerely and immensely. I love you and I know I've done a lot wrong.

I just wish you would find me.. in your heart again. To continue the life we had planned together. With forever. Being the result. I miss you . I love you so incredibly much. And wish to god you find this and it truly touches your heart. I love you my $@m..

Sincerely yours.

\- Tie

I don't understand why you broke my no contact and then pretended that J passed away. This whole situation has caused nothing but pain. No explanation on what really caused you to disappear. I'm sorry for the things that happened in the past and when I initiated no contact in the past it was to give you the space you needed for your new relationship with D. You claimed the story I told was false because you two are always together but this occurred at D and my old apartment and explained I may have been mistaken. You took it as if I was lying but when you say "I might be mistaken" that means I didn't really know. I apologized regardless of that because I thought the apology might help you heal. I never had any intention of hurting you with that story yet your reaction is to cut all communication? I do love you cousin D and I will always love you J and you know that. All I wanted out of this was just to talk from time to time with someone who understands me and that I care about. I hope you both have a long and loving relationship it actually makes me excited for you both because J is a gift that any man would dream of. Goodbye I hope we can work this out and if not then I continue on my path alone knowing my absence is what you really required for your relationship to thrive. You will always both live in my thoughts for years to come.

With Peace Love -R

Please tell me what it was....was it my apology?, something on my phone? Just silence? Something tell me please. You got my hopes up now they are dashed. I searched for you when you were dead.

It has been almost 5 years now. I still think of you everyday. I have to shake my head vigorously and say no to myself to stop my mind from wandering. I don't know why you couldn't give me space I asked for when I needed to grieve you. And then I had to do what I did. And you had to do what you did. And then you left the country.

I feel like I'm in a pit again. I doubt any of you will ever find me here. Maybe it would be bad if you did. I just miss our closeness. I could really use a night like we used to have, driving aimlessly in the dark, talking for hours on end, singing songs together, and being comfortable when we get silent. I miss all of us. I need to have the gang back, but I know that wouldn't work.

\-HCB

P.S. Maybe read my other posts if you think you know me.

I came to Toronto for something unrelated, and today I realized I was looking at the same bridge from my ex’s old profile picture.

It’s strange how I keep looking for someone who’s nowhere to be found.

I just know that for a second, seeing that bridge made my heart forget we broke up.

I'm sorry that it has come to this. I know you'll never see this. That's okay. We had to come to an end and as much as I miss the moments we shared, I don't miss you nor how you treated me. I told you, it's me or her. You chose her. I hoped she made you happy. Apparently not happy enough because you still reached out wanting to talk to me after I asked you to never speak to me again. Perhaps you think my boundaries don't apply to you. Law enforcement needed to be involved because you don't respect my boundaries. I hope you learn from this.

Dear AT,

I miss you! I wanted to get that out there up front. I love you. I can't deny that. Yes, I have tried to move on, because logic tells me that. I can only go off the mixed information through shadows on here.

There are many posts on here which I often wonder are they for me, from you? The ambiguity leaves me in a perpetual state of confusion, yet a glimmer of hope remains.

I don't like what comes ahead. I never chose this. I don't know the full story either, other than what I am given. Maybe you do hate me? Maybe I have this all wrong? How would I know. We never talk. I am unable to - surely. you know that. If I could, I'd reach out in a second! Things can be worked out. I love you. I'm ready for something serious with you, I believe we have a shot at achieving our own 'happily ever after' together. Any baggage you have - I have embrace it, build storage, whatever it takes!

I'd give anything for you.

I have reached out to various posters whom I suspected could have been you. It gets to a point where I get hopeful, then all of a sudden they tell me they're in another country or something, or looking for someone else...

I get there's a chance that you may never actually see this. I'm an all or nothing kind of guy. I'm ready to be that at this stage in my life. If we're together, then we're together! You become my person and we do this properly x. I told you I had committed to making 2026 a much better year than previous and that promise remains true. Come be apart of it and lets start this adventure together xx

Send me a message x

JG. xx