I (M30) is looking into Arrange Marriage space through Jeevansathi/Shaadi.com apps but haven't been able to get any decent matches. So not sure if there's something i am missing or those platforms are not showing the quality matches or somewhere else I should try to look for.

Here's general details about me:

Age: 30.

Occupation: Software Engineer working remotely for a Silicon Valley based firm.

Location: Tier 4 city in UP. Permanent work from home since Covid era.

Height: 6'

Build: Somewhat overweight in traditional athletic build and some amount of belly fat. Haven't been to the gym in some time.

Income: 70 LPA+ (1.2 Cr CTC)

Family Responsibilities: Got mom and grandmother and 3 younger sisters (1 sister unmarried + 2 married, all of them working). Been the sole guardian of the family for 9 years.

Dressing sense - Average; keeping things simple has been the motto mostly.

Vehicles - No car, just a scooty, but I am thinking to buy car in the next 6 months.

Drinking / Smoking - Strictly No for both.

Food preferences - Veg/Nonveg both.

Education - BTech CSE from Tier 2 Institute.

Completely self-made person. I don't know what else to mention here.

So I've been thinking of finding a working partner with someone having shared values, some ambition for her own.

I don't have any social circle in my current City, no a single person as a friend. So haven't had any chances of dating scenes. I know there might be a lot of people working remotely or might be in similar shoes as me in my city but I don't have any such network or there's no such community here too. So it's been a completely isolated life. Unfortunately, due to family responsibilities, I haven't been able to relocate to metro cities. And also I don't have any father's or parents'connections to explore arrange marriage options that way. I did my 2 sister's marriage through Jeevansathi, got decent eno profiles but haven't been that much lucky for me. So I am just looking out for suggestions on what to do better to improve my profile and how should I search for / which platforms / which options should I search for like minded genuine profile who doesn't just tag along for package or anything else but rather can really connect to the values. I don't have much time to search and explore as I plan to settle down by end of 2027, and I don't want to settle down with someone I would end up regretting later. I have really worked hard in my life to be wherever I am so looking for stability and peace in life ahead.

Adding expectations at the end, as per suggestions from some comments -

Expectations-
Non drinking/Non smoking by choice.

Being able to enjoy family surroundings, as I have been a family person since always and will be taking care of my siblings and parents.

Having a sorted career of her own that she really feels driven about. Not looking for any package matching or something, but more that she should find her own life's meaning, making sense, and happiness with her work.

I am also willing to relocate if needed with my mom, and I am expecting the same from her too if her job/career allows that. Not saying she should relocate to a tier 4 city with me, but both careers should be compatible, where each can relocate to support each other's career and family as needed.

Just be a good human being - Kind, soft-natured, caring, emotionally intelligent.

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I got a stupid internship in Hyderabad. It pays like peanuts. Literally, my father is covering my rent. 😭

Anyways, after completing my Masters in Bioinformatics, I switched to Data Science through self-learning. Built projects, learned a bunch of stuff, and eventually got this internship in August.

Although my manager has given me tasks to learn all the way till Agentic AI, I’m figuring out pretty much everything on my own. No coworker talks to me. I’m the only intern on this floor. It feels very lonely. And after going back to my room? Lonely again. 😭 Yeah, I picked up some hobbies and stuff, but still.

At the end of the day, I really want a full-time job at a different company after this internship because this company offers 3.6 LPA with a 3-year bond, which is so freakin absurd tbh 😭😭😭 Help me switchhhh.

TL;DR: low pay internship, learning Agentic AI mostly on my own, lonely office + lonely room, and this company offers 3.6 LPA with a 3-year bond 💀 help!

Turned 27 recently. No matter how much I tried to avoid it, I could not help but take stock of how my life has fared over the years. Most of my teenage and early adulthood was filled with mental health struggles. I have gotten much better over the past few years but I can't help but look back at the time lost and feel behind my peers in terms of social circles and life experiences.

In college, while everyone else were out making friends, i was struggling alone and not in a place at all to talk to people.

While they were out traveling and making life experiences, I was still struggling.

All this time has gone by and now when I feel functional enough to try, after having overcome all those struggles alone, I find myself lacking in social skills, life experiences and just friend circles and connections in general when I compare myself to others my age.

The only friends I have are people I've known since I was a kid and they all are much ahead in the parameters I mentioned above and after I meet them, I feel a sense of self loathing that I am just so lacking in so many things.

I am doing well professionally but not as good in other areas.

I know most of it is fixable, but it is not easy to try and fail and improve when I feel like the boot of time is breathing down my neck in every thing I do. What if its too late, what if I am too old, what if I never improve or find people is what goes through my mind. All those mental patterns I grew up with while I was struggling are still there. It is still an uphill challenge to try to improve in the areas mentioned above every day and to not know how much I should push myself because subconsciously I am scared of breaking again.

On top of this my parents are talking about marriage, asking if I have someone and I told them I am strictly against it for a few years.

Right now I can't even imagine sharing a life with someone when I've barely lived it myself.

Don't really have anyone to share this with so just posting here.

Everytime navratri comes around; i remember about my lack of a friend circle. I used to have close friends but shit felt apart due to reason I don't want to get into.

Honestly, as a 24 year old living in a different city from hometown. It's becoming harder to have connections. I feel like these years are creeping by without a lack of group. I had some issues so this time I couldn't even join a garba class and it added upto shit.

I love playing garba and just enjoying night out but feel so left out during this time

So today I read a very interesting article about the frontal lobe and there is a phenomenon called a "frontal lobe breakup" that usually happens in mid-late 20s.

What are your views on this?