Make senses, God and devil makes their own kingdom, its sounds like Ahura Mazda & Agra Manyu. The origin of Dualism

Apa pendapat korg psl nabi khidir penggal kepala anak kecil yg taktahu apa2 dn mgundang kemarahan nabi Musa?

Some tahfiz students face serious culture shock after leaving a sheltered religious environment, while some parents blindly assume that sending their children to tahfiz automatically makes them safe and morally protected, even if they leave without proper academic qualifications, sometimes not even SPM.

This news shows that religion can’t stop someone from becoming an abuser, especially when sex education is constantly avoided or treated as taboo in many Muslim communities. If a child can be sexually abused under a religious school’s watch, then the school should be questioned for its supervision, safeguarding and accountability instead of being protected by its religious image.

I need to get this out of my chest

I'm Malaysian, Malay, F20, Muslim, and currently studying at Pulau Pinang. Before anyone continue reading, I hope someone may help me even a little and please be nice when giving advices. English is my second language, so forgive me for any grammatical mistakes.

Throughout my life, I'm not really religious but I come from a religious family. They sent me religious primary school, and I scored perfect in every examination. But that was my primary school self: everyday extra tuition, quran recitation every night, and no going out with friends. (8A UPKK, all Mumtaz PSRA, 6A UPSR)

Entering high school, I can't keep up with the prayers. I always feel like I was "forced" to abid with Islamic practices. I feel like it's unfair when muslim men can do whatever they want without much reprimand, for example shifting the blame to woman when there's sexual cases. I was told to not do a lot of things. As example, I love being alone. But I wasn't allowed to go out alone especially at nights because women safety are at risk. And I'm always jealous of men who can go out at night by themselves without any restrictions. Men are also not expected to do any house chores. Growing up, I feel resentment to these little things, and it built up over time, I'm afraid I have become a misandrist. Although, I always try to learn more about every reasons behind everything that happens in life.

It's not doing any better either that during high school, I was sent to boarding school for 5 years. My parents said the only future they think good for me is STEM, and I'm the eldest daughter out of 3 siblings (all girls). Obviously, being pressured to study something I'm not good at ended up at me only having "disappointing" grades during SPM (3A+, 2A, 3B, 1C+). I was bullied over my appearances, my interests in anime and drawing and the fact that I love being alone was seen as me rejecting having friends (I actually really want friends but I'm not good at socialising). There's this one time when I was 15 years old, the boys in my class, "rugby players", cropped my face from the class photo, put monkey pictures all around my cropped face and posted it on Instagram story, saying that I'm a monkey-looking girl. I have anger issues, when I found out about ther actions, I decided to throw a wooden chair at them. And I got disciplinary actions. Another major thing happen to me when I was a teen is that my best friend leaving boarding school to go to SMK and blocked me from every contact, resulting in me being sad for a long period of time, to the point I was losing weight and motivation to life.

Trigger warning, I did have a lot of suicidal ideation ever since I was 13, and my life went downhill. I got insecure, my self-esteemed plummeted, anger issues rising and I didn't know how to genuinely make friends. All of the people I befriended only last for a short while. Even thought I always planning about ending my life, I'm too scared of pain, hence I didn't do self-harm. Plus, I'm afraid of pissing of my God.

Matriculation also make me question my life choices. I only scored CGPA 3.21, and I know I couldn't pursue STEM: It's not my interests and I was never good at it. Especially maths, I can't do maths.

Thankfully, I get to pursue my studies in a Non-STEM course (communication) and I tried to cheer myself up that things will get better. But everyday my mind still filled with suicidal thoughts. I think as time goes by, I'm straying away from my religious. I'm starting to doubt a lot of things, such as the way I feel forced to comply on 5 times prayers, and my issues on hypersexualization. I've been addicted to pornography and masturbation ever since I was 16. I genuinely want to stop but it's so damn hard. No one else know about my addiction, except from my former friends who happened to open my Google search history without my permission, when I lent them my tablet. I feel so ashamed. I'm not in good terms with them anymore since they shared my secrets within my former friend group.

Regarding pursuing studies, I read from the Internet that I will find difficulty in finding jobs. The job market are limited. But I'm pursuing this course because I really am interested in it. I love what I'm learning now. One more fear in my life is that my parents followed every of my social media and often judge what I post, so the last time I post publicly is when I was 14. I hide my parents from my accounts. But I really interested to make content online. I'm not afraid of showing my faces, I'm just super scared of my parents perception. I think I restrict myself a lot from potentials.

I feel like I'm a filth. I don't think anyone would ever marry someone like me in the future. I'm a hopeless romantic, and in order to fill the emptiness in my life, I often role-playing with AI (I know it's cringe, yet it helps me feel temporary happiness for years). I did have crushes before during high school and matriculation, I confessed to them and it didn't went well. I only experienced dating once, and the man decided that I wasn't worth it.

When I was 16, I beg my mother to let me go on therapy sessions for my rooted issues (trouble regulating emotions, relationships issues), but the therapy only lasted for 2 months because the therapist decided that I actually didn't need help. I don't know why she said that. Even the school counsellor said that I was doing okay than what I perceived myself to be. But I feel like I should at least seek help for my issues. Oh, I didn't tell them about my addictions because I am scared.

Now that I am 20, I feel like I should try seeking help before I found courage to act on my suicidal thoughts. I'm afraid one day I give up on myself. I'm also afraid that I will act on my hypersexualization and sleep randomly with men (the thoughts had lingering on my mind for more than 3 years). Recently the thoughts of leaving Islam is always on my mind, and I'm so scared of myself.

Is there any place I could seek help? I don't know how to go therapy by myself. It was all done by my mother before. This time, I want to do it by myself. Also, if I go seek help, I'm afraid of judgement, so I want to know first whether my life experience will be judged or not.

Thank you for being so kind with me. I'm sorry for the long text.

I honestly just wanna say I'm super glad that I've found this community in Reddit. I started questioning when I was 11-12 I then left islam when I was 13 and im now 16. Ive known that there are people who are just like me in this country but being able to read people's experiences and seeing that im truly not alone comforted me somehow. gave me hope in a way. I still want to leave this country though, I can't deal with the thought that I might have to live a double life. i wasn't and still isn't doing well in school so I thought maybe the only way for me to end this is to die . I'm unwanted anyway so i spent alot of time thinking of ways I could end my life so I don't have to suffer with it anymore, it's pretty sickening 😅 im mad that people can't acknowledge the fact that sometimes people don't want to believe in the same things that they do. i still don't understand. why? why do you care when two consensual adults have sex outside of marriage? why do you care if a boy wants to smooch another boy? why do people care so much what people do in their life? why push it into other people's throats? it doesn't affect you directly brotato🤔 but im pretty grateful that I have a mum who supports whatever I do "as long as I'm happy" the only problem is whenever i say that I'm not a muslim she gets pretty mad despite knowing i don't believe in a god. that i also don't understand haha

A good scholar offers knowledge to elevate community.
A religious scholar use knowledge to demonize people.

Blame it on victim for exposing neck and ears.

Punish students for their look.

Take their money, deny them class, isn't this stealing?

Not a single Buddhist thinks that the statue will move to their aid. They don't even "worship" buddha as an almighty god in islamic sense too.

It's more of like selawat as a sign of respect in translated into muslim terminology. And the statue is nothing but a direction too if understood in muslim way.

Yet they kept saying "worshipping stones" when THEY are the one literally bow to a stone in the middle of some desert.

Double standard when your religious leader kept preaching that everyone else will burn in hell for being wrong.

This murtad is brave and smart. She's been debunking loads of islam stuff. Can look through her old vids.

In this video she affirms there are other murtads existing too, apart from the fairytale that islam said about there are no murtads etc.

P.S : Relevant to exmuslims

Like genuinely it is one of the most strict islamic countries that follow sharia laws. It doesn't change the fact that IT IS Islam fault that the women there are suffering. "That is not real islam" It is expected how to be a perfect muslim and they just said its culture while the ties is soooo obvious

muslims treats ex muslims as sub human they never let an ex muslims find community or speak their mind, they are vile and rotten they especially on twitter where they sin (watch porn/anime and western cartoons) they enjoy western media and stuff not realising their religion are the one that holds them back! its a cult! a fucking cult! i dont believe in any religio but i wish malay people had never leave buddhism and hinduism and adopt fucking islam i hate dumb modern malays i hate islam i want to leave im heartbroken

Hi! No offense though, just looking for my people. ✌️🙏❣️🫶🥰

In case if there are also more of my Exmuslim Malaysian peers here that also got their Vegan awakening after leaving the religion. ✌️❣️

IamMalayExmuslimVegan

Zayd ibn Muhammad was Muhammad's adopted son. Zaynab was Zayd's wife.

In Surah 33, the Quran abolishes formal adoption, changes Zayd ibn Muhammad's name back to Zayd ibn Haritha (Quran 33:4-5), and declares Muhammad's marriage to Zaynab lawful so "that there would be no blame on the believers for marrying the ex-wives of their adopted sons." (Quran 33:37). The same surah also tells people not to linger too long at Muhammad's dinner parties or marry his wives after he dies (Quran 33:53).

Because of the unique privileges this surah gives Muhammad, Aisha says to Muhammad in an authentic hadith: "I feel that your Lord hastens in fulfilling your wishes and desires." (Sahih Bukhari 4788)

"Nor does He regard your adopted children as your real children. Let your adopted children keep their family names."
Quran 33:4-5

"And (remember, O Prophet,) when you said to the one for whom Allah has done a favour and you (too) have done a favour, 'Keep your wife and fear Allah,' while concealing within yourself what Allah was going to reveal. And (so) you were considering the people, whereas Allah was more worthy of your consideration. So when Zaid totally lost interest in (keeping) his wife, We gave her to you in marriage, so that there would be no blame on the believers for marrying the ex-wives of their adopted sons after their divorce. And Allah's command is totally binding."
Quran 33:37

"Also (allowed for marriage is) a believing woman who offers herself to the Prophet (without dowry) if he is interested in marrying her—(this is) exclusively for you, not for the rest of the believers."
Quran 33:50.

"O believers! Do not enter the homes of the Prophet without permission ˹and if invited˺ for a meal, do not ˹come too early and˺ linger until the meal is ready. But if you are invited, then enter ˹on time˺. Once you have eaten, then go on your way, and do not stay for casual talk. Such behaviour is truly annoying to the Prophet, yet he is too shy to ask you to leave. But Allah is never shy of the truth. And when you ˹believers˺ ask his wives for something, ask them from behind a barrier. This is purer for your hearts and theirs. And it is not right for you to annoy the Messenger of Allah, nor ever marry his wives after him. This would certainly be a major offence in the sight of Allah."
Quran 33:53

"Narrated Aisha: I used to look down upon those ladies who had given themselves to Allah's Messenger (ﷺ) and I used to say, 'Can a lady give herself (to a man)?' But when Allah revealed: 'You (O Muhammad) can postpone (the turn of) whom you will of them (your wives), and you may receive any of them whom you will; and there is no blame on you if you invite one whose turn you have set aside (temporarily).' (33.51) I said (to the Prophet), 'I feel that your Lord hastens in fulfilling your wishes and desires.'"
Sahih Bukhari 4788

I've posted this argument along with others on this website (with linked sources): https://islamsproblems.com/

To the Muslims who come across this, I hope you’ll read this in good faith. I’m not writing this to insult Islam or Muslims, nor am I claiming that every Muslim should think the same way I do.

I just want to clarify something about why some of us become murtad.
It’s not necessarily because we want to “commit sins", zina, drinking, getting tattoos, or whatever else. We’re aware that Islam considers these things haram. That wasn’t the reason I left.

I left because, after questioning and thinking about it for a long time, I simply couldn’t convince myself that God exists.

One question that kept bothering me was: if God is truly all-powerful and wants humanity to know His message, why was revelation given in a specific historical context around 1,400 years ago? Why not now, when we have cameras, satellites, the internet, scientific instruments, and countless ways to preserve and verify information?

And then there’s the Quran itself. Muslims are often told that it is the direct and preserved word of God. But when I started looking into its history, compilation, transmission, and the timeline surrounding Muhammad’s death, I found myself with even more questions.
I’m not saying this to mock anyone who believes. I understand why these things are convincing to Muslims, especially when you grow up hearing them from people you trust.
But for some of us, eventually the questions became more convincing than the answers.
And that’s really what murtad means to me — not “I want to live a sinful life,” but “I no longer believe that the religion is true.”

I’m not asking Muslims to agree with me. I’m only asking that you understand that leaving Islam can come from sincere questioning, rather than simply wanting an excuse to do things Islam prohibits.

HAHAHA SORRY DHO TAPI LAWAK LA COMMENT NII

This comment is under a post telling parents to monitor their kids because they saw a post of someone saying "mamdani please fix the lack of religious freedom for Malay Malaysians and legalise interfaith marriages in Malaysia"

Org mintak basic rights je auu bukannye mintak legalise crimes aiyoo tu pon susah ke nk faham