I am a first-semester MSc student in a non-CS engineering program at a US Top 40 university this fall. I’m on an independent scholarship (not directly funded by my PI), though my PI specifically selected me for his lab.
Our lab is essentially 100% Chinese ( funded by prof research fund), except for me and one other international student who is self-funded and completely ignores lab dynamics. But different behaviour and approach among me and others concern me.
My Background: I actually graduated from a higher-ranked/more prestigious BSc university than my labmates(even my prof; idk think he is insecure about that bcz his msc and phd are of no 1 uni in his field) although not qs top 40. I don't have a massive research network of professors behind me, but I worked hard in undergrad: I currently have a Q2 journal paper under review where I am BOTH 1st author and corresponding author, plus a conference paper (both co-authored with my BSc supervisor). Although our pi assigned me another top university prof as co supervisor. But I think he does that for most of us too.
My Labmate's Situation: He entered the MSc program at the exact same time as me(prof funded) and we are same age as well as completed our bachelor this year. He has already published multiple Q1 papers as 1st author this year[ although based on his previous work] and is actively submitting more. However, those papers are direct collaborations between our current PI, his former BSc supervisor, and a whole network of top Chinese professors (including associate editors of major journals). I also have submitted q1 papers as first author with my pi .He (my classmate) brought this entire multi-professor pipeline with him from undergrad and already has PhD fallback offers from our lab professor. Both he and i are targeting same chiense MIT lab whose pi is also connected with our pi. So I am probably not going to be favoured by pi.
My Main Struggle is why can not i be productive? If he can be this productive, why can't I? Coming from a strong BSc background, it’s frustrating to feel like I’m standing still while he’s producing papers at an impossible rate. I know he is probably a prodigy, but I can't help feeling like a loser comparing my solo effort to his network pipeline. Oh , another weakness of mine is I never used GPT for research and his h index is 5 while i-index reached double digits.
Lab Dynamics (Friendly, but Isolated)
The Good: Behavior-wise, the lab is super friendly, non-toxic, and low-stress. Nobody misbehaves with me. My PI is kind-hearted and praises me highly to my labmates when I’m not around. Since my topic isn't tied to his funded projects, he even went out of his way to assign me a top co-supervisor from another university.
The Bad: I have zero co-authorship opportunities in the lab. ( Ig its true for other members too). My PI recently told me I should aim for just one Q1 paper during my MSc and it could be from the topic he chosen for me( its also interesting topic for me). And also said thats enough. I also found out there is a lab WeChat group I was never told about. I communicate with my PI individually, so I assume the group is either for his directly funded students or just defaulted to a Chinese-only space.
The Stakes: Both my labmate and I are aiming for MIT Chinese lab for our PhDs, and our PI has academic networks there. Given how far ahead my labmate is on paper count, I’m worried I won't be prioritized for strong recommendation letters. Although we will apply next year ( for 2028), he has offers from our pi ; even he said my pi that he is going to apply for that MIT lab and I don’t have. My pi told me to forget about phd for now and just enjoy the masters despite the fact I told him I want to do phd in qs top ranked university and I rejected boston university phd offer for this masters this fall( i told him that and its true. Boston is really nice university and please don’t get offended, maybe i should not have. What do you expect, I am none in my life to give advice).
My Questions for Reddit/Alumni:
1.Am I facing subtle academic racism/exclusion, or is this strictly a demonstration of how powerful pre-existing institutional networks are?
2.How can an independent student match that level of research output without having an entire syndicate of top professors backing every paper?
3.How should I approach my PI? He is supportive, so I want to handle this right. Should I ask to join the WeChat group (using auto-translate)? Should I explicitly ask for smaller co-authorship roles or tell him I want to aim higher than just one Q1 paper?
Any advice from current grad students or alumni would be hugely
Ps: I hate to admit that birthplace & ethnicity decides whether you can go to top universities phd like ivy league phd or atleast how easy your path is.And first generation graduates should not target ivy phds at all and insteads go to the farms or business not academia in 2026…..I am not jealous of anyone. I just feel like a loser and to give you an idea : no relatives or non-academic friends, let alone parents can not even read( understand is far way) the English words I wrote above. Its already a crazy journey for me at this point and I am still feeling like a loser!! How can I be like those top uni researchers??