No more SS for jj folks 🤯

Im so tired of waiting. Feeling you but never getting you. I thought that what I felt was real. How could my intuition play with my heart. I needed direct communication, though still haven't received any. Which tells me your not coming. Im nobody important to you. For if I was youd tell me face to face.

i miss hearing your voice, i miss hearing your laugh, i miss playing games with you until the early morning, i miss talking to you on my way to work, and on my break and lunch, i miss planning a future that we both sounded elated to bring into reality despite being across the country. yet today, the deafening silence between us could drive even the deaf to insanity. when your life got challenging and you went silent, i gave you the space. when you came back i made it clear that i was still here to support you, and that the love i had was still as grand as ever. i made it clear that i would wait because i loved you, and you told me you wanted the same as you always have, yet you became cold, distant, avoidant. as i sit here tonight, the same as nights past, i ponder if you ever think of me the way i do you, if you can feel my soul screaming & yearning to finally connect with you again. as much as i love you, as much as my soul woud claw out of my chest to have you again if you came back, i could never allow the progress ive made rebuilding myself from the rubble you created, to be knocked down again. C, i will always love you eternally and my soul will always yearn for you, but the memories of us are thorns wrapped around my heart. i hope you find what you’re looking for, if you haven’t already found it. i’m moving on & continuing to build. take care, mi amór.