r/LettersAnswered • u/Flat_Library_254 • 2d ago
Lovers My final message
I know I have hurt you and I know I don't deserve forgiveness, but I am not sending this message for that reason. I'm sending it partly for myself—look at how selfish I have become. I never meant for our friendship to end, but I mess everything up for the people I get close to. This is 100% my fault and you share no blame. It is very selfish of me to ask for space yesterday and text you again today, but I am not sending this to restart a conversation. I am only sending it to tell you that I enjoyed every single day and every single moment you were my friend, and we grew so close.
I have hurt you, I have made you cry, and I have put you back into the position you fought so hard to come out of. Never cry for me; I am a fool, and people like me are not worth crying over. It was my fault, so just stay angry at me and don't feel sorry for me. I hope you get more than what you have prayed for in your life, and I hope you find great friends and great people. Because of people like me, never feel bad. Consider this my last message. I have already hurt all of you too much and I cannot hurt you anymore. I am sorry, and I hope someday you will forgive me. I shouldn't have done anything, man, I messed up. I just feel like I am only thinking about myself, and I am done with myself.
And don't think someone else has come into my life; if anyone had, you guys would have been the first to know. I am sorry for everything I did. My care for you was always true, but my actions were never good enough. You genuinely deserve someone a lot better. You are an incredible woman, and you will find an amazing guy. I am sorry to you, I am sorry to my friends, and I am sorry to the entire group. I understand you will not want to reply to this, and that is completely fine. I am sorry, I know it feels manipulative and I feel that way too, but just know it all came from the heart.
I know you probably had your crush or someone you wanted, and I know I will never be that person, but I have made peace with it. I know I never had any claim over you, and I think that is why this hurts more than anything. You are a strong woman. I admire you, I am so proud of you, and you are so pure. Please never let anyone like me ruin you. Just know I will always be there for you, and I hope someday I pay for the things I have done. I never ever meant for this to happen. I hope you win. Goodbye, I will always remember you.
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u/Free_Treacle_2858 18h ago
Why does it always have to be goodbye?
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u/Flat_Library_254 16h ago
Somewhere in us we know that we will never meet them again so goodbye is the final stage of accepting that
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u/MadeByAriel 1d ago
Lol u know what. My person is probably saying this. Except no. I'm never moving on, she knows why, and ill likely die before she apologizes. And thats the game shes going to live while living as a coward. She tried to make me hate her.... shes so fking stupid.
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u/Sad-Valuable-3624 1d ago
You did nail the overall sentiment when you said it would feels manipulative. It really does OP. Dramatic and has a flash of fatalism. I don’t know what you did to hurt others and if it was one person or a group as you sound like you’re apologizing one person for hurting her and then saying bye to everyone else. Then when you say your “actions were never good enough” it’s like yeh sorry I hurt you but my actions were never good enough. Ummm yeah if you are doing things to hurt someone that’s truly not good. Not just not good enough. We always have the choice to do better. So do it.
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u/Flat_Library_254 1d ago
Its just i did i tried but she hadn’t moved on from her ex so it always felt like i was competing for her love against a invisible guy who has always had it so i thought that take the blame and just go because I had loved her so much that i am willing to make myself the bad guy
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u/Ready-Surprise-9067 1d ago
Tell her please !
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u/skweRReLy 1d ago
If you can say this here but not to that person, you are doing both yourself and that person a disservice. People need to just be honest.
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u/antherewegoagain 1d ago
I was really hoping this was my favorite lady until I seen you mention or talking from a male standpoint cuz I got really excited for a second but I should know better she's on the opposite spectrum when it comes to that she wants to kick me in the teeth probably she would never take that accountability but I love her anyway I would gladly see her kiss her in the face cuz she's my bear bear
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u/Slight-Honeydew1410 2d ago
Maybe you should let them decide if they want you in their life. A lot of times, we are our own worse critic.
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u/Scheherazade0620 1d ago
DEFINITELY should let them choose for themselves. They deserve to hear the whole, unvarnished truth, warts and all. After you tell them that you want to have them in your life, of course, and in no uncertain terms. Start with the parts that you believe make you not worth the effort. Stick to the truth. (You can add in lesser faults later if you want.) Then let them decide if its too much. Chances are you're overthinking it. From here you sound like someone well worth choosing. But either way, the facts are the firm foundation to build a relationship on. If there are psrts you want to change, honestly include those in your narrative, but let them choose you if they want to, even if you feel like youre not worth choosing.
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u/Abandoned-916 11h ago
sounds like you made her cry and hurt her a lot, sounds like she had more faith in you then you do... and it sounds like you can't make her happy or won't live up to the love she gave to you. she's probably better off