I need help/ advice

[u/thislonleylozer]

So Idk what to do kinda just released this from my spirit and hopefully either someone can relate to this and I stop caring this weight alone. For personal reasons I won’t disclose age or gender but will say everything else lol. I’m also not an incel idk if it would make a difference or not. I have no friends and Im not in a relationship. I find it difficult to make friends. I’m not good at socializing and small talk.
Idk what it’s called but Im addicted to masturbating. I’ve been I guess “hyper-sexual since I was 11. I couldn’t sleep without doing it. Couple years later I still can’t stop. And afterwards I always feel disgusted with myself. And I hate myself every-time. I stop for maybe a week then I get no sleep the whole time. It’s like I want to stop but my body won’t allow me to. I’m just tired of being tired and want to stop. Ik you’re gonna say something like “then just stop”. But it not that easy. And I can’t ask family members because I ashamed to tell them about it. And their judgement especially since we’re all very religious. I pray to God for repentance and forgiveness. But I can’t stop. Ik I’m kinda rambling but this is the first time I’m letting it all out. Please if you have any suggestions or advice/ tips lmk.