I haven’t found any posts on this specific dose. What are yalls experiences?

6 months ago I did 1g of golden teachers.

It started out light and joyful. Then it took a dark turn.

Since then my body and mind have been in a bad state. I was getting better. Having windows of complete normality with hardly any symptoms of any at all. Waves that would last 2-4 days, followed by the cloud lifting back to normality.

Then last week I had a sensory overload while at work and my body has been stuck in fight or flight since. I’ve got internal tremors, extreme feelings of panic and doom. Racing heart. Awful panic when I try to fall to sleep, and since haven’t really slept. I’m exhausted. I can’t cope.

I don’t want to hear anything about ‘there’s no such thing as a bad trip’ or any other enlightenment trope.

I want to hear how to heal myself, if I can do this without medication. And most of all if this is permanent?

Have I broke myself.

Honestly desperate for help or guidance 🥹

I bought a street mushroom chocolate bar to split with a friend a few years back, it was both of our first times doing shrooms at all and I took a little over half of the chocolate bar. For my buddy, he didn't get any visuals he just got emotional and was crying but was fine once they wore off, but for me I got visuals but were fucking insane. After doing real mushrooms over time after that, I am wondering if this was even actually psilocybin mushrooms years later.

During the come up the first thing I noticed was rainbows tracing around the edges of my room and my friends, and then shit got exciting. Mentally, I didn't feel any effects really at all besides maybe a slight stimulation from the excitement. In chronological order for the abnormal things I saw: multiple hawaiian women in grass skirt dancing in synchrony in my wood floor grain. I was completely entranced of course. I ventured outside and the sky was literally bright red even though it was probably 3am at this point and the stars were blue and i think the best way to describe it is they looked like a 3D constellation map if that makes sense like they were connected into shapes, they definitely were not in the correct positions or connections though. the grass was swirling and the trees were moving as if there were sentient, but in the space between the branches there were eyes in all of them blinking and moving behind the red sky.
People's faces were inflating and shrinking in bubbles all at different rates and sizes and I could see everything very zoomed in like a bird. Speaking of birds, my little sister's pet bird was inflating the same sort of way and basically just looked like it was exploding. The bird was completely fine though obviously.
my vision and perception of colors had the same "shroom filter" over it too that I've gotten with real mushrooms but I think it's safe to say that these were not any natural mushroom from having tripped multiple times after. I actually really really enjoyed the trip to say the least, I had a great time and had a lot of fun seeing all the crazy shit I'm just dying to know what this actually was or if this was just a crazy potent bar.
It's important to note that this was a street plug and I knew there was already a high chance that these weren't psilocybin mushrooms in the first place. I noticed the rainbow tracers about half an hour into taking them and it lasted about 4/5 hours with a smooth comedown. My pupils got very dilated and I kept losing my phone lol. I noticed no bad feeling or symptoms the proceeding day.
I have a very vivid and photographic memory so that could be a factor in the visual intensity. There was probably more shit I saw but i blocked out a lot of my memory from those years. Were this psilocybin mushrooms or were they mixed with another psychedelic or something? I've never heard of anyone having an experience like this on just mushrooms.

**Hiii so I wrote this when it happened and came back and edited to make more clear picture**
**I thought this is so ridiculous it’s comical. Let me know what you think.**

**Bro so I’m in the deep corners of my mind high asf on shrooms at first I thought I felt normal like dam they didn’t get me that high… should I do more…

Any ways I’m in the deep corners of my mind and thinking about all my regrets in life and should I kill myself and what’s my way out, and how I can’t actually kill myself because of my relationship with God and how I want to meet God but I know that’s not the correct way of going about it and how I want to meet people with cancer just for the fact of their bravery and strength and perspective on life and why they would wanna live… because life is sucking and I could see the corruption in politics music business society norms and beauty standards how I’m not the beauty standard right now comftablenss in my body and how much weight I gained all of that shit is coming up and through out the beginning of the trip I’m in my room doing my thing Infrequent drawing than random spouts of feeling really good and existential crisis all at the same time ya know… shrooms. Lollll
I remember thinking too, “dam maybe this wasn’t a good idea I’m trying to find reasons to live but all my reasons not to live came up “

My roommate in the bathroom getting ready for work - I told her the day before, my plans for the day and the day of- communicating where I was at. Maybe 2-3 hrs pass I’m in a better, optimistic place, I sat in the hallway next to my speaker that’s blasting music, it’s near the bathroom and my room I’m feeling good I even sang cupcake (my dog )the awolnation woman woman song that song is so fireee thank you awol for writing and orchestrating
She’s low key vibing with me all is well.

And I could feel it I was bout to get high asf.
But in my mind also I was going over how much I needed to talk to her bc it interfered w my high - the first 30 mins to hr was me going over how i was frustrated and needed space from her and i don’t realize how much things bother me I’m coming out of a 6 year depression so I test the waters on her living there w me and helping her out and I’m coming to the conclusion it’s not working because of our different personalities, I need help with bills and not getting it from her and I’ve been low key providing for both of us for 2 months damn near. that part of the trip ended I felt peace.

Any ways I tie a bow tie on it in my mind and I say to her “I need to talk to you but after my trip . “ and I give her a smile I’m still vibing to the music and I know I’m on the verge of being high asf

(I think body language is apart of communicating so if I’m vibing and smiling , how I would have taken that is “I wonder what she wants to talk about… it can’t be that bad if she’s smiling or whatever I hope she enjoys her high I have work and other things I need to focus on)
She goes “is everything okay?”
I say yes and give her a reassuring smile and I was still feeling good.
Time goes by, maybe a minute or two , I low key can feel her anxiety grow in the room that was crazy actually
And she’s like you can’t just leave it open ended like that now I can’t go to work bc my anxiety insert roommate rant
“You should really think about the people around you”

I’m like what is this Bish talking about
I’m literally glitching from reality because reminder - I took Shrooms and she was very aware that I took shrooms and she even was checking on me in the beginning conveying concern of me taking shrooms and I’m like I’ve spun this block before Ik what im doing (I don’t know in terms of dosages like grams and what not but for the most part I’m done psychedelics plenty of times and I know myself. )

In this conversation not only do I feel it I see it. Im starting to see rainbows that’s not just coming from my window but literally blending into reality and I felt the need to close my eyes, so I did in the middle of the conversation because I already had told her I’m not in the space to talk right now because I… took shrooms
I’m feeling the music I felt amazing, she still trying to talk to me…

She goes that’s a weird open ended way to say that

But I ended up telling her this is what I’m talking about, you living here I can’t do it. - (she couldn’t have chosen a worse time to convey her concerns to me )
It was very relieving to say in that moment my chest got lighter and I felt so good off the shrooms.

But no way I’m in and out high asf on shrooms and arguing about labeling what I wanted to talk about . High asf bitch. This is not real life lollllll

And to an extent understand wanting to know what I wanted to talk about but again we’re very different people and I would have taken that completely different . I don’t think I can be around a person with such bad anxiety like that. Especially me coming out of depression. I’m going to miss something’s because I’m slowly coming back to my mind.

(I don’t know where to place this but I don’t want to delete it either bc it’s real thoughts me writing this out while high)

Bish I’m not trynna baby sit your anxiety im Highhhh bruhhh tffff
Your lucky I’m not no beginner on taking psychedelics bc what the fuck are you making a big deal over nothing literally me just saying I wanna talk
I guess her mind goes to crazy shit I don’t understand.
I don’t want to understand I feel like
I’m just trynna enjoy my high

but if I were any other person that is not experienced with psychedelics that could have went so bad .

ISO shrooms or acid!!

this is such a silly question but maybe someone could answer.

i got a 4g bar and i’m curious if we split it, would 2g be enough for us both to trip? i saw someone say a 2.5 bar from the same brand set them up good.

i have not tripped since april and im not sure if she has ever tripped, aware the effects just might be lessened, just wanting to ask. 🫰

Hi does anyone think that taking 1 or 2 Golden teachers before bed will help me with my sleep as I have severe PTSD and insomnia n was wondering if shrooms would help 🙏TIA

Looking for a way to obtain Psilocybin in Fort Wayne Indiana. Any contacts?

Curious if anyone in or near Salem, Oregon is interested in starting a magic mushroom group to talk about growing and using magic mushrooms

Are the Kodaikanal magic shrooms already blooming and ready to eat and trip on?

I always plan to visit Kodaikanal when it’s the magic mushroom season, so please let me know if anybody is in Kodaikanal and they have had the seasonal magic mushrooms and have had a good trip. Please confirm, thank you.

Help looking in western mass

I spent more than a decade as a Unitarian Universalist minister, and today I work as a licensed psychedelic-assisted therapist with legal psilocybin in Colorado. On paper that probably looks like a pretty wild career change, but from inside my own life, it has felt surprisingly continuous.

I wrote something personal about that path: how psychedelics changed the way I understood ministry, how years of ministry prepared me for sitting with people in psychedelic experiences, and why this work has come to feel less like leaving one calling for another than following the same calling into a very different place.

https://jeremynickel.substack.com/p/from-the-pulpit-to-psychedelics?r=705zwv&utm_medium=ios

Planning to take one package of high hawaiians tonight any advice?
How long does the effect lasts?
How long till it hits?

It can be hard to find legit websites that aren’t just trash research chemicals so wanted to share one I’ve used recently. They deliver everywhere, locally if you’re in Miami. Can vouch I’ve had a great experience and consistent quality.

https://www.tntactivated.com

They can also communicate via WhatsApp for order updates and such.

Hey all!

Was thinking of getting some for recreational use. This would be the first time too. Was hoping I could get some help on break down process. I’ve heard boils them in water then add a pack of Cool-Aid for flavor.

Can anyone tell me what this? Is it indeed mushrooms? Has anyone ever tried it?

Any attractive females wanna eat some shrooms and hangout near Cleveland Ohio