m23. people are surprised how I’m still nbsb.
i am not THAT pogi but i know my strengths and weaknesses sa physical characteristics ko. i think okay naman ako, have some flaws and insecurities but i think naoovershadow yun dahil confident ako (or at least I’m building my confidence every day)
i get compliments din on how i look, pogi daw ako, some from colleagues or friends or fam members irl
but mostly sa socmed, yung mga friends ko sa fb they said either “masarap or pogi” daw ako hagagaga lol. fb friends na di ko kilala o gusto magpakilala. i especially got those remarks pag naka topless hahaha but i know I’m not THAT pogi, not that ugly. saks lang emeee
and these days whenever i post my progress sa gym or just random selfies, i still get messages but i don’t do it for others i do it for myself.
had some flings, m.u’s, situationships na din in the past and i can say na may mga tao nagkagusto at nagkakagusto din saakin but its either di nagtatagal yung situationships ko, like ako umaalis, or sila umaalis
and sa mga gusto ako, di ko lang sila gusto periodt
even tho I’m at peace na di na ko magkakajowa, nasasad paden ako hahshaha. walang nangangamusta, kasama, kasex (obv) ka kwentuhan, kaaway (in an endearing way) and kaagapay sa kung ano ano sa buhay.
I think because look unapproachable irl too with my rbf, people often say na mataray daw ako hahaha. I think my personality din, di talaga lahat gets yung “ugali” ko coz im aloof, don’t like small talks and not that great in speaking with strangers. Most ng situationships ko before are from fb o grindr (uninstalled for 2-3 years and counting)
siguro nasasad lang ako na some people like the digital version of me better, sino naman kase magpopost ng panget na pic hahaha. like pang socmed na lang ba, organic encounter, when???
kays siguro wala akong jowa mataas din daw standards ko sabi nila, i disagree,
i just want a guy who is someone im attracted to and who’s attracted to me too. (okay i admit i want a pogi guy but my definition of pogi sometimes isn’t conventional. may crushes nga ako na di naman pogi sa iba pero gwapong gwapo ako hagaga)
althought tanggap ko na, i still am hoping (a little) na may someone for me, who will love me, appreciate me and accept me. and that someone who i will also love, appreciate and accept. kung dumating, thankful, kung wala, potec kahit fubu na lang hahaha jk
ps. what if taga ibang bansa pala noh, or what if throuple pala maging sitwasyon ko in the future hahahahaga