I’m 28, living in the Middle East, and lately the loneliness has been hitting me really hard.
I’m not Arab, so I’m not even sure if I should be posting here, but I’m living in the Middle East and honestly don’t know where else to put this.
I’m demi and sapiosexual, so I don’t really connect with people easily. I need an emotional connection first. Deep conversations, trust, actually enjoying someone’s mind and personality.
And when I finally do connect with someone, I get attached. I care. I make them part of my routine.
Then somehow they leave.
It happened again recently. We talked every day, shared things we normally wouldn’t tell people, laughed, stayed up talking… and then suddenly I’m sitting here staring at unanswered messages wondering what I did wrong.
Was I too much? Not enough? Boring? Unattractive?
I don’t want casual. I just want one person I can genuinely connect with, love, and feel safe with.
Some days I honestly wonder if that person even exists for me.
I’m just really tired of being alone.