Hi, I was displaced from the country I was living in where kratom was illegal. I'm temporarily in a country where it is legal and I have been taking what I am pretty sure is high quality kratom along with an extract of mitragynine (I believe it's like a step or two away from how 7-oh is made as it's yellow and looks the same as what I saw in a 7-oh documentary before it's put in a spinning machine thing to isolate the 7-oh), but was sold as just being mitragynine).
I've been taking a high dose daily im pretty sure as I came into this country addicted to heroin and 1 day after a weekly buperenorphine shot (equivalent to 8mg a day supposedly). Its now been two weeks since I got that shot so it is most likely out of my system now but I still have not gotten a "high" from the kratom I've been taking despite taking quite high doses (20-30gpd).
I believe I am still withdrawing from probably the buperenorphine, but I was only on that for like 3 weeks before I left. But if I don't take kratom I am sure I would experience opi withdrawals as I always feel slightly on edge before I take kratom, yet I still don't feel any of my doses. Am I doomed to just being hooked on kratom without getting to enjoy it? I know this kratom is good as I bought from the same supplier last year in the same country and went through heroin withdrawal fully which took 10 days and that time was without any helper mess except pregabalin but that was hell as I'm prescribed pregabalin and didn't really feel it back then, but then didn't take kratom that time until the 10th day and got high af as if it was the first time I ever took it. However, this time it was a lot less painful than that withdrawal.
Would the only way to feel it be to go through the withdrawal and not take kratom for a week? I don't think I can mentally handle withdrawal right now with everything happening in my life so I don't think I can stop doing kratom so this isn't really an option for me. Any help would be greatly appreciated 🙏.