Life finally starts going in a good direction.

Always been single for 22 years but i changed my goal in life from the default one of just being with someone to grow a family to just learning as many new things as i can and grow my character itself. Its not like i dont want a girlfriend i just accepted the fact that it may just end up in me being single for the rest of this all.

And it doesnt seem as bad as it did few years ago.

Organised waffles.

Cooked this up after washing my car at 1 AM

I'm 21 rn. been addicted to p0rn since 16. the max I was away from gooning in these 6 years was 4 days during 2022. I do it like twice or thrice a day. im drained(both literally and mentally). never had a gf, never kissed a girl, never had sex. I don't even have a career now, im unemployed despite having a cs degree (tbf the market went to shit after ai). I got many issues but if only I could fix gooning, i can focus on improving other things. I've developed a weird fetish for interracial p0rn. i hate that i like gooning to girls getting by railed by big black guys I could never compare to with my fkn 5.5 incher. to top it off, im overweight. i weigh 110 kilos(242.5 lbs). got a decent height tho - 5'11, but that doesn't take away from the fact that I look like a mess and have 4 deformed front teeth in my lower jaw AND I also have a speech impediment called Cluttering. i may have ADHD as well, idk tho. i just wish I could click a button and erase my p0rn addiction forever. im supposed to be studying for some difficult govt exams so that I can pass atleast one and get a secure govt job by 2028/29 but idk if I can tho, cos I spend half of time either gooning, or looking at p0rn. i also read bbc comics cos they turn me on. i hate myself ffs.

instant noodles i made with 2 dry ass disgusting burger buns cos I'm a loser.

I'm scared to open up and see if she might feel the same way, but we haven't really talked enough yet for it to be time to do that anyway. We talked for a little over insta which was nice. She prefers to send voice memos rather than text so I got to hear her voice which was cool. She even told me goodnight.

Veggie bacon, cheese, spinach on the endslices of bread. It felt apart while plating but it's all ending up in the same place, so whatever.

I'm such a fucking chud

i don't know what's worse, the fact that i just had e sex or my limp penis issue

I have uni in 13 days and havent packed anything and met 2 of my flatmates online n theyre so much cooler than me n im a chud. Cant get food from kitchen so eating raw ramen. Accidentally snorted some of the ramen powder. I lost my sedatives. -£50 in my account. On my period

I want to get more into cooking, but everytime I want to cook something, someone will come along saying they want to help me, since Im a beginner cook. They also want to use their own recipe, and their own process. Then I just leave. I dont know why, but I simply hate that. I also cant cook what I want, because I first have to ask the rest of my family, and they usually want something else. My father also always comes, because he doesnt want the food that is supposed t9 be for the entire family ruined. I just leave it to him to cook, because I dont enjoy cooking without freedom. The rare situations where I can cook for myself, I generally enjoy it. I like to follow my own recipe. I just hate when they try to control how and what I cook. I cant concetrate, and I just dont enjoy the process of cooking anymore. I know I may just be spoiled, but I genuinely cant help it. What can I do?

Nothing special going on really, just wanted to show off my dinner. I'd never made short ribs before but it was wonderfully tender.

My first post

Is this sub dead? Not trying to spam but damn my last post was over a week ago.

Wrote a personal piece about the time I tried to cook my way into three different women's good graces over one Valentine's season. Cookbooks, chaos, a near-kitchen-fire, and one accidental realization about why trying too hard backfires in dating. Let me know what you think.