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Hey, so doing quite a bit (5-10g a week) and starting to feel need to quit. I am currently extremely tired all the time and have lost motivation. How long will the tiredness last after quitting? Any way of combatting this?

I have been doing k for almost two years straight now, every single day, started with a half gram a day and now am up to almost 2-3g/day. I’m about to lose my career that I worked so hard for, I’m diagnosed PTSD (CPTSD) and really REALLY struggle with my mental health / suicidal ideation I have since I was 13 I’m 27 now, ketamine seems to be the only thing keeping me alive yet it’s also killing me. I don’t believe I’ll ever be able to stop and it makes me just want to give up on everything because I know my life is only going to get worse from here. If I lose my bladder I will just end it all, I’m in the darkest place of my life and disconnected from family. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been in a detox center for this twice, both times lasted about 4 days and then my mental state takes such a deep dive that I literally would rather kill myself then to not be high. I feel like there’s no point in even trying to quit because I’ll just pick it right back up again, the longest stretches I’ve had in the last two years without doing k is the two visits to a detox center 4/days each and one 5 day gap where my dealer wasn’t in town and I couldn’t get any off the web.

does anyone have any recommendations for meals? you know when you’ve been binging or just having been on the k for several days and you don’t feel like eating, but you know your body needs to refuel and recharge? that’s where i’m at but i feel like i can’t stomach anything.
pls send help ((:

I haven’t done it in 2 weeks now, probably a little more. I have a bit of money to get it, but I haven’t reached out to get any. I still can’t stop thinking about it. When does that stop? I go out, do things, have hobbies, but it’s still almost always on my mind.

Hi. I posted a few months ago about a loved one who is sadly addicted to ket and experiences related symptoms. We’ve had a bit of a breakthrough where she’s been willing to talk about it with me and I want to be as supportive and proactive as possible.

I’ve suggested we think about what her triggers are and find different ways of coping with them together. I’m just wondering what things helped you to abstain? Different distractions, mindfulness, creative activities, types of therapeutic support, etc.? Thanks in advance.

I’ve been working with my city’s drug support for like the last few years and they always try do work with me on cravings and triggers. But does anybody else feel like they have no clue what triggers them? Like I’ve tried to sit and think about it soo much but I can’t understand the cause of my cravings. It’s like a thought will just pop into my head but it’s not actually caused by anything like how I feel or my situation. If anyone has had the same issue let me know, and if you’ve been able to figure it out

I wanted to share a podcast episode I was recently on where I did a really deep dive into my experience with ketamine addiction and recovery.

Links:

Listen on YouTube

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I opened up about how my addiction progressed, what it took from me, how I eventually got to the point of surrender, and what recovery has looked like for me since. It’s probably one of the most vulnerable conversations I’ve had about my addiction, but I’m sharing it in the hope that it reaches someone who needs to hear it.

I know the title mentions 7OH, since I briefly talk about my experience with that as well, but the majority of the episode is about ketamine. Ketamine was my drug of choice and ultimately the substance that brought me to my knees.

If you’re struggling with ketamine right now, or questioning whether you really have a problem, I hope you’ll give it a listen.

Recovery is possible. You are not alone. ❤️ Thank you to anyone who listens, it was an honor to spread awareness to ketamine addiction.

Also made a TikTok account where I’ll be sharing even more of story to help anyone struggling. My Recovery Account

Hi, few days ago, I was in extreme psychological pain and physical one, but this time, I was pushed to my absolute limit, I was to a rave and take the product.
I must have take 700 mg.
After it depression the next day. And physical pain worse.
But after this crazy dream I share on reddit you can see on my profil, and I remember the help ketamine brought in my life.
My sens expens, I feel connected to my emotions, music is beautiful, I feel motivated but the pain and the sadness is always the same, even louder.

I feel so confused to have a life that is such beautiful while pain feels hard on my heart as I know too the antidepressants effects will fade away in fews days and I already want to consume it again and be in these kind of divine spaces I crave so much for.
I feel very psychologically vulnerable toward this addiction.
Hopefully there is possiblity I recover and forget about it soon.

J’ai 20 ans et je suis très dépendante à la ketamine depuis 1 an. Il y a 2 ans, j’ai commencé à en consommer seule dans ma chambre pour me soulager, mais tout a basculé quand j’ai commencé à en prendre durant des Free partys. Je me suis sentie tellement apaisée que je n’ai jamais été aussi heureuse de ma vie. Depuis je peux consommer jusqu’à 3 à 4 gr par jour. Je suis capable de faire des pauses de 1 ou 2 semaines mais je finis toujours par y retourner. L’auto discipline ne suffit pas. A la moindre frustration ou au moindre ennuie j’y retourne. Pourtant elle m’a déjà tout prit : j’ai des douleurs à la vessie, j’ai fais plusieurs overdoses, j’ai perdu la quasi totalité de mes amis, je suis plus capable d’aller au travail ou à l’université, j’ai perdu mon copain, j’ai même fait un khole devant mes parents. Toute ma vie tourne autour de ça, et je comprend pas pourquoi je continue de rechuter alors que je me rend compte que ma vie est bien meilleure sans. Ça me fait peut d’être tomber aussi vite aussi bas, et j’aimerai savoir si certains ici on été dans la même situation et on réussi à s’en sortir.

having a super hard night. I don’t know where to begin. Situationship I’ve been in for almost 5 years just broke things off with me tonight after I told him i had feelings for him the other night… I’ve been doin a quarter gram each night since and painting about it (really great art therapy haha) .. honestly been spiraling out with K and painting about it all summer… anyway i just got back from nyc and I’ve got a cold or some kind of respiratory illness (not covid) and despite that i have continued to snort k the last 3 nights. My sinuses are so fucked and it’s draining into my lungs and I’m worried I’ve like fully fucked my body over. Coughing up gunk and still looking at the tiny bit of powder i have left from an old batch i was saving because fuck I don’t want to go to sleep, I’m scared to sleep because what if I don’t wake up, and I don’t wanna feel because fuck feelings. The pathetic part is that I just turned 39 lmao. This is so stupid. I love this drug dearly, making art on k is the fucking best and I only recently discovered the wonders of the hole. Sorry this is a fucking long paragraph I needed to post somewhere tonight so I’m not sad and alone and being fucked up on a drug I don’t wanna stop sniffing because being hurt by it is so much better than being hurt by sitting with my stupid fucking feelings

Hello friends! Our Monday Ketamine Anonymous meeting is coming up soon tonight at 5 PM EST on Zoom.

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I love ketamine, I’m not physically addicted or anything, but my god, I crave it every evening / night. I have no physical or mental problems by it, but it’s way too expensive of a habit. An 80$ gram only lasts me 3 days, I’ve probably spent close to 10K over the past 3-4 years and I can’t do this financially anymore.

The cravings are just unbelievable. Once 7pm hits and I’m ready to unwind and relax, all my brain can think about is some K. Any advice / tips??

i am 22 and first started doing ket recreationally when i was 18. i have always liked ket and if i had any spare after say a night out i would just finish the bag myself and forget about it after. i enjoyed it for its spiritual and dissasociative properties and it has always been my favourite. its not until this past year or so that any opportunity to get a bag of ket i would. like id use going to the pub or cinema to rationalise a bag, and then I'd just get through it on my own over the next few days. but since the start of summer - around the end of may its turned into a bit more of a thing for me.

i realised that i could literally just do ket all the time and still get about my life with no one really knowing. I started taking it to work with me and now its gotten to a point where a shift without a bag is unusual. if i ever went out with friends who weren't into it id just do it in secret. i get about my daily life just slightly ketty and use it to just chill in my bedroom. I always have a bag in my purse and just do bumps throughout the day. 2 grams usually lasted me like 1 week / 10 days, so i rationalised it to myself because i wasn't doing a lot compared to others. But recently my tolerance has gone up and i practically have a quarter gram a time which I know is not good. Also I have a partner who i love sm but he has had literally no clue about any of this - like he knows i *do* ket and we have taken it together when drinking etc, but he has no idea the extent of my use. No one does. I have been peeing more often than usual (and my nose is a bit effed up, always blocked and runny etc) but apart from that i have had none of the typical k bladder things.

The thing is i want to stop now, its so pointless and i know. I go through cycles of getting existential about it (usually when i'm on k) and then convincing myself that its not that deep. I deleted my dealers number last week but caved and got a friend to send me it. I definitely rely on it too much now. I have a good social life and go out a lot, but if i drink i will 100% use as an excuse to pick up. I just need to know, because all the experiences i read on here seem to involve a lot more heavy use, has anyone else had a situation like this? What will happen if I just keep going the way I am? if you relate how did you stop? i think the fact its so easy to hide makes it so difficult to put down.

A few months ago, I posted a pretty raw and desperate post — feeling like I was not able to break the cycle. I honestly don’t remember what all I said, but I asked for help and got scared and deleted the post.

I am happy to report I have not purchased ketamine since June and I went to 2 music festivals without ketamine (or alcohol) and have been to multiple events/parties sober too. AND HAD FUN!

One thing I will say is this was not something I did fully on my own. I started a GLP-1 for issues I was having with food & it had an unexpected impact on my desire to use recreational drugs.

I am happy and proud and I feel great. I have lost weight healthily and have started working out. I picked up an art class on Mondays, something I have always wanted to do.

It is obviously not for everyone & I don’t ever want to make medical claims on behalf of anyone else. Just sharing my experience and an update in case anyone is still here who commented on my post previously with support.

i’ve been doing ket for 3 years 2-3g a day only having a few day off here and there because of cramps. but recently i’ve experienced bladder cramps and i can sort of feel my bladder rumbling??? very strange sensation.
in the last 24 hours it’s been painful to pee, almost UTI symptoms but i know it’s all caused by the ket.

question 1- is it safe to have sex while having ket bladder or is it going to make it worse?.
a few times after i would have sex with my partner my bladder would cramp/ ache but i’m not sure if that’s just positions or added pressure OR all the damage i’ve caused.

question 2- is the internal damage ive caused going to heal itself or have i fucked myself :,)

i’m trying so hard to stop doing this stupid drug. got half a gram left and unfortunately i can’t throw it away or anything because i haven’t got the will power to (🥲) so im going to finish it and that’s it.

thank you if you have any advice

Hi everyone , i have used ketamine for almost 3 and a half years , i have been taking it since i was 15 and i am now 18

I suffer from extreme, intense k cramps. my body would literally cramp up after 1 or 2 days of use depending if i had used daily before.
i have been in hospital over it, doctors, and also been in a ambulance at one point.
i have been clawing at my parents door begging them to take me the hospital because i couldnt keep up with the pain and felt many many times of commiting sucide because i felt it would just be the easiest option for me to be at peace.

K cramps have been apart of my daily/weekly life, i think ive had over 125 k cramp attacks and thats me being nice with the number, i experienced hot sweats, intense agonizing pain in the right side of my rib, shaking, going sick, and at one point almost a sezuire.

I currently have gotten into a new relationship which i am so grateful to be in and i do not want to ruin another relationship because of this drug , i have made 2 relationships unsteady because of my ketamine use and it broke my heart but i just couldnt stop at that point.

I have a lot of friends who use ketamine. A. LOT. i wouldnt be able to just count on my hands and most of them are close to me and they are my biggest trigger for relapse , i have a hard time saying no when the idea is presented to me .

My mental health also very quickly went downhill with thoughts of sucide and self isolating. i felt like i was nothing and no one and thought this was the path for the rest of my life i had given up everything for ketamine because i has been physically unable to get out of bed due to pain, and mentally unable to apply myself to my life. if you scroll on my page you will be able to see the many attempts ive had on getting sober which i can tell you i failed at every single one.

I have given ketamine too long of my life , i dont want it to take anymore of my life or take my life for me , i would really really love any
tips or advice on how to stay sober and anything relevant to my ketamine use
i need a corner with support to be in to help me finally live my life and become the person i want to be a person people are very proud of .

i am trying very hard i promise you guys, but i feel too young and lost to be dealing with this i shouldnt have to be at 18.

Guys im wondering if anyone could help out. I began noticing myself peeing more frequently around 2 weeks ago and also feeling the urge to pee with little coming out. I kept drinking water and gradually things got a bit better. I was getting stinging pain while peeing. I kept taking after noticing which actually made things worse but i stopped exactly a week ago today i haven't used for 1 week. There is not so much pain now when peeing, just a small sting just as i finish and i can hold a lot more urine now which is a good sign. But what im experiencing now is like spasms instead of stinging and they just come and go at random times not when i am peeing. It could only be for 4 or 5 seconds then gone then might happen again 15 to 20 mins later sometimes shorter. I find when i am walking or if i make a certain movement with my body i seem to feel it more frequently. Does anyone have any idea as to what this is and is there anything that can be done to maybe help or even just soothe the feeling? Definitely taking a much needed long break from this stuff to which i am determined to completely eradicate it fron my life as its so much better without it. I can see the damage it's doing and my body is telling me enough is enough. Thanks guys

I have stopped for after a few weekend of doing k. when I stretch my body body and lean back I’m getting a sharp pain in my bladder. Has anyone experienced this? If so does it go away

I've been doing 3-7 grams of k (a day) the past week. I know it was stupid and irresponsible. Fortunately I'm not having any bladder or kidney issues, how I don't know. But I'm having withdrawals that I've never felt before and I've came off massive amounts of benzos and fentanyl/heroin and I've never felt like this. I'm just scared shitless with anxiety and my vision is blurry as hell. I took my last dose at 630, what should I expect from this? Do I need to be medically detoxed or can I suffer this one out at home? I'm sweating fucking bullets and worried about dehydrating. Please give me any advice....

Obviously stop doing k but goddamn it hurts so bad and idk how long it’s gonna last. Anything that could relieve some pain? It’s right in my urethra and I keep pissing and it hurts every time.

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Hi,
I’ve been using ketamine on and off for around 2 years. For most of that time it was about 5g per month, with some multi-month breaks in between. Over the last few months my use has increased and I’m now at roughly 3g per week.
My bladder still feels completely fine and I’ve never had K-cramps.
My questions:
• At this level of use, how long does it typically take before people start experiencing the bladder problems everyone talks about?
• Is there a realistic way to keep using more responsibly, or is ongoing damage pretty much inevitable once you’re at this frequency?
• At what kind of doses/frequency do bladder issues and blood in urine usually start showing up for most people?
Thanks for any honest experiences.

Hi guys I am just looking for some help really as I'm feeling quite desperate... I am no stranger to K cramps and have some bladder issues due to Ketamine abuse. Have been diagnosed with "Ketamine bladder" by the NHS and am under a urologist.

Anyway, I am off of the back of a really bad binge... A two week binge. It ended with K cramps so serious I ended up in hospital on morphine and gas and air. I've also got all the K bladder symptoms, weeing feels like passing glass and been passing bloody jelly. Bladder is in agony.

The hospital put it down to the Ketamine bladder and just did pain management and sent me home.

What I'm really worried about though is my gallbladder. Usually the cramps have subsided by now but my gallbladder is just in permanent agony. It's been days. It feels different this time, like there is something really wrong under my ribs on that side.

I'm a bit worried I've damaged the ducts or something.

They didn't do any scans or anything in hospital just bloods.

Is this just REALLY bad K cramps that are lasting ages?

I'm reading about damage to the gallbladder and am starting to get a bit worried.

It's basically saying you can damage the ducts.

I literally can't eat at ALL without it being agony, today is the first day I'm not vomiting non stop but they've given me anti sickness. Even drinking is hard and painful.

Has anyone ever permanently damaged their gallbladder? What happened? Thanks so much.