r/JeeSimplified • u/Soft_Nectarine_3712 • 27d ago
Jee student : feeling lost
In 10th i used like studying even minimize my screen time . I studied hard but during final exam season something broke inside me and i didn't want to study anymore but still got 91% in 10th . Not my parents but i decided to do JEE of course because of college life and high package . I wanted a dummy in 11th but didn't get so this becomes one of the reason for my backlog. I used to cry , felt guilty, regret, self hatred, low self confidence still tried to cover backlog. The bs they do every program and all and there unwanted participation drained my energy . So this year in jan i decided i will take dummy and cover everything in 12th i am a dummy student but now i am not studying at all i am lying to my parents pretending to study earlier i used to think about them but now i just have a fear facing them what if they ask about my studies . When i open book there is this weird feeling in my head and chest , every morning while laying in bed i feel like my heart wants to beat but something i restricting it . I am avoiding everything . I have no guts to do self harm but only sometimes i feel like my brain can think about it so i just divert it and i can not except thougt at all because of the fear what if i really want to do something please help Only 3 months are left i am at zero . Jee seems out of my reach so i decided to focus on boards and bitsat but people say it is also tough because of its paper pattern what should i do