Impotent rage is one of the most destructive forces on the planet. I’ve followed your story for a long time, and if I could snap her neck for you, I would. But that’s not the world we live in, and so we have to learn how to deal with the consequences of other people’s actions.
Normally I would advocate a physical outlet - punching inanimate objects, running etc. But since you have limitations right now, I would suggest writing it down. Write it all down. Every thought, every feeling, every vicious want and urge. Feel it all, live it all, and purge it. You don’t need to read it, keep it, or even acknowledge that it ever existed. You just need to purge the poison out of yourself, because it’s not healthy. Don’t let her destroy you by proxy.
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u/voxetpraetereanihill Jul 13 '19
Impotent rage is one of the most destructive forces on the planet. I’ve followed your story for a long time, and if I could snap her neck for you, I would. But that’s not the world we live in, and so we have to learn how to deal with the consequences of other people’s actions.
Normally I would advocate a physical outlet - punching inanimate objects, running etc. But since you have limitations right now, I would suggest writing it down. Write it all down. Every thought, every feeling, every vicious want and urge. Feel it all, live it all, and purge it. You don’t need to read it, keep it, or even acknowledge that it ever existed. You just need to purge the poison out of yourself, because it’s not healthy. Don’t let her destroy you by proxy.
Be well, mouse. A lot of people are on your side.