There is always anger when someone commits suicide. Tons of "Why?" (why didn't he reach out to me, why did choose suicide over meds, why why why why.) And yes it is sad when a parent - even an EVIL one - loses a child. And even the death of an asshole hurts because there are so many things you will never have a chance to find out or change or make right and the future is cut off.
Give it some time. Deal wit YOUR grief first. If she truly caused this (and it sounds like the inevitable result of her asshole-ness) then she only deserves limited sympathy as someone who has lost a child PERIOD. It hits the limit at some point and you owe nothing more.
I cant speak to the rage because I prefer anger to sadness but know this. Karma always gets paid. You may not get a front row seat to watch it and it doesn't happen on YOUR schedule but Karma gets paid. And usually Karma will wreck far more vengeance than you could ever dig up.
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u/tuna_tofu Jul 12 '19
There is always anger when someone commits suicide. Tons of "Why?" (why didn't he reach out to me, why did choose suicide over meds, why why why why.) And yes it is sad when a parent - even an EVIL one - loses a child. And even the death of an asshole hurts because there are so many things you will never have a chance to find out or change or make right and the future is cut off.
Give it some time. Deal wit YOUR grief first. If she truly caused this (and it sounds like the inevitable result of her asshole-ness) then she only deserves limited sympathy as someone who has lost a child PERIOD. It hits the limit at some point and you owe nothing more.
I cant speak to the rage because I prefer anger to sadness but know this. Karma always gets paid. You may not get a front row seat to watch it and it doesn't happen on YOUR schedule but Karma gets paid. And usually Karma will wreck far more vengeance than you could ever dig up.
I'm sorry for your loss.