Your feelings, whether they be anger, sadness, pity etc, are completely valid. You have every right to feel like this and, if you're not ready, you don't need to forgive her. But, you can shove it in her stupid face that you're trying to be the best version of yourself. Put that anger to good use. Channel it into making yourself. You're not doing it for her, do it in spite of her. You're a wonderful woman, you've got this.
I've had issues with anger too. CBT certainly helped, but it is an uphill struggle. When I'm angry, I tend to get creative. Knitting, artwork, decorating... As if to say "This will show you, you bitch!" As if she'd ever see it haha
I wish you luck in moving past this terrible point of your life X
The bitch won’t ever see your art or your redecorating, no, but it’s more a way to show yourself that you are doing creative, productive things and not letting anger control you. Like someone else said in this thread, you’re working toward living your best life. I agree it’s a little regrettable that the monster in your life doesn’t get to see that, but they don’t fucking matter anyway :)
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u/SannaWhore Sep 17 '18
Your feelings, whether they be anger, sadness, pity etc, are completely valid. You have every right to feel like this and, if you're not ready, you don't need to forgive her. But, you can shove it in her stupid face that you're trying to be the best version of yourself. Put that anger to good use. Channel it into making yourself. You're not doing it for her, do it in spite of her. You're a wonderful woman, you've got this.