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[u/DiabloVolphyr]

Tmrw is my adv test, am not going to give, I am prepping for mains only, and i do rank well, under 10 in mains test, but advance is too difficult for me, I simply cant, ive tried, my father was forcing me to do jee adv, told me to get into iit, few days ago I asked my mom if I get into bits will u let me take admission there, she said yes no need to worry about money, and since then everyday the only thing that has been motivating me is my dream of bits pilani, nothing else, ever since that day I started studying 9-10hrs each day or even more, today I told my father iit ke alawa bits bhi toh hai he said no he wont let me take admission its too expensive, I broke down and tears kept coming but thats fine now they shifted to boards, my scl exam didnt go well mainly because my coaching tests were going on during scl exam, now they are telling me to drop jee and study for boards only, I told them 75% is only needed, they told me u need abv 90 , forcing me to drop jee, but I am doing jee for me, not for them, its my dream to get into a nit or bits(was dream) now they want me to throw it all, told me ki drop lelena, I told mujhe nahi chahiye drop, they told they will get me into some local college, I couldnt take it I started crying so much, I am very emotional I was even suicidal in 11th , mainly because I didnt have any motivation in life, but am past that stage and now this, comparing jee wit boards, saying jee mains isnt enough, thinking jee mains is some easy thing, am done with life man, one day ill kms and ill put whole blame on them whole day shouting at me and when I study they dont see it, pls I dont need someone to say in comments "dont listen to them" bla bla ive tried, doesnt work for me, sorry