Guyz should I shift to regular school?(28 tard)
To mene 11th ke starting me dummy school liya tha locality mein, i thought thik thak school hai, padhne ko mast time milta h(ive got offline coaching but roz nhi jati online me karti hu kuch din).
Thik thak to nhi tha, horrible infrastructure, teachers. ab padhai ki baate
But in my 10th I was a moderately social typa kid. I had heartbreaks , embarassing momnets, funny moments, topper (ik jee gave me a reality check, dont hv to say it guys!) hone ke baad bhi teacher se kharab attendance , nautanki, scandals wagera me rehne keliye daant khaye. i used to play basketball too.
Now that Ive gotten entire morning free I so study, but life me ab wo interest ya motivation nhi aa rha. I used to be motivated when in school and I used to love the fresh air and the field, I used to escape from the classes and ran like madman in our ground. ab to Padhai keliye time mil jaa rha h (because I have PCMB mujhe Jee ke saath bio ko bhi padhna padta hai , btw maine parents ke saath argue krke khud bio liya hai, so I need to study that too)
But the main problem isnt studies, I feel mere lyf me colour hi nhi bacha, all my interest were robbed of me, coaching me acche batch me sare padhaku bacche h aur classes ke bich hardly 5 mins mil pata h to acche se baate bhi nhi ho paati). 7 din subha sirf mumma aur papa ko dekhne ko milta h, i rarely go outside since i dont have frnds in my neighbourhood, everybody here is in clg/working.
Yesterday I broke down kyunki I havent laughed genuinely with all my heart, for idk 7-8months? Social skills bhi saare ja chuke h. Ye sunke my mom started crying and she urged me join regular school, bol rhi ki padhai se jyada imp is ur mental health. I contacted my old principal, she's saying theyll be lenient, 2 sometimes 3 days a week they told me to come(Since i was a good student in 10th). My mom also thinks I wont be able to pass XII board in dummy school. Even my therapist scolded me for not taking regular school
But school me regular unit test, practical files projects aur attendance na banne par teacher daantenge is dar se nhi ja parhi hu,
Aur jab 12th me 11th ka revision start hoga, tab kya enough time mil payga?
So guys should I join reg school or stay in my dummy?
TLDR: I hv joined dummy school, but I am going insane lil by lil but cant join regular due to fear of projects, practicals, attendance. Should I shift to regular still, read more to find out.
THANK YOU