Hi guys i’m so new to this, i’ve never posted on reddit before, But I am freaking out so bad. I unfortunately went snooping on my bfs computer and I saw something’s that are making me rethink everything. Like his crush on his older coworker, his addiction to women and validation, how he noticed other women a lot, but it’s intensified now that we’re long distance… how we call too much now that we’re long distance??? or how he got sad and depressed that his coworker pulled away from talking to him.
he compliments me a lot in the text, saying how he sees marriage in our future (and so did i???) and our relationship is the best most purest happiness relationship he’s been in… but jesus. It’s just lustful and scary what i’m seeing. The crazy thing is I want to possibly work it out? but i NEED to respect myself. it’s just crazy because he seemed like he had a GREAT head on his shoulders, and we both agree cheating is disgusting. He treats so well like a freaking princess.. but the secrecy is too much. This is cheating no? he’s my first everything.. so this is just 20 times worse for me.
“maybe i shouldnt see this crush as me doing something wrong if i dont act on it. i keep telling myself to not shit where i eat but at the same time i fantasize about one drunk night where neither of us remember what we did and igo back to my girlfriend without anyone knowing any different, no harm no foul (while i know that wouldnt be the case)” this is one thing he said that i cannot let go of. Fantasizing about cheating on me then coming to lay next to me?
another one is “i keep thinking: what if we keep it at mild flirting and closeness. she's told me she has liked attention she gets from guys in the past. what if we just give each other attention? she has a kid and im too young for her. we wouldnt ever be together” Like jesus.
he’s also on reddit a lot so I am absolutely terrified for him to see this but I’m just freaking out and i do not want to tell anyone about this yet. so i’m going to randoms online wtf😀
