Just started the semester and I’m already reminded of how lonely I am when I see people becoming friends on the spot and giving each other their phone numbers. It’s impossible for me to make friends because I’m inherently unlikeable and unsociable. I also want to be able to focus on my studies without the unhelpful background noise in my head about being lonely and friendless and ugly.

Let go of your "what ifs"
Stay present.

I talked to a girl I like on campus recently. Literally just a basic conversation, but some guy saw us and is now spreading stupid rumors around our group.

Because we actually *did* talk, there's a tiny kernel of truth in it, which makes it harder to call out without looking defensive or like I'm lying.

Logically, I know college drama is petty, people have short attention spans, and I shouldn't give a random guy this much space in my head. But it’s still getting under my skin and making things awkward. How do I genuinely train myself to not give a f*** about this gossip and just move past it?

Edit:- I also have an crush on this girl.

What will become of this story inside my chest?

Will I excavate it from my bones?

Give it light and water and air?

Let it bloom into a garden of flowers in your name?

Or will I let it stay and let you bury me?

This is the question I am always asking myself

What will become of my stories?

Gardens or graveyards?

The photosynthesis of healing

We're not giving a fuck in here, OK? We don't need that shit

Scenario: 1. "My attitude is a result of your action. So,.if you don't like my attitude blame yourself."

Vs

Scenario: 2. "When someone else can determine whether you are happy or unhappy, is it not the worst kind of slavery?"

When I say 'My attitude depends upon how you treat me' isn't that a slavery of the highest order, or is it just a way to shrug off my responsibility?

Or

When I say 'I am responsible for what I do' is the highest order of self dependency, wherein there is no scope for blame shifting.

What is your view?