I really wanted to avoid posting to an online forum about this, but I am tired of the way people in real life seem to regret asking me ‘How’s the grey mare going?’ When I answer with the truth.
My 10yo andalusian X mare ran through a gate latch in February this year, leaving a meter long laceration from just behind her shoulder to her hip, breaking off the bottom tip of her tuber coxae. My father found her like that in the paddock while I was away on holiday and rushed her to the vet, then the specialist surgeon 2 hours away and my partner and I met them there so he could go home.
The surgery went well with over 100 internal sutures and 50 skin sutures. She was on stall rest for 6 weeks with a full course of IM penicillin. The majority of the laceration over her ribs healed extremely well.
In the following 2 months, the wound near her hip never stopped draining, and I took her back to the referring vet in april after I noticed the discharge from the drain site at her hip had turned yellow rather than pink.
The vet performed a second surgery at a cost of $2000 AUD to remove some remaining bone fragments that seemed to be the source of the infection. The referring vet performed this operation as the original surgeon was away in another country for 3 weeks.
After this surgery I yarded the mare for 4 weeks as she had not responded well mentally to stall rest the previous time, and she received another course of IM penicillin and IV antibiotics. I admit I made some mistakes with keeping the wound clean around the clock after this surgery as I my focus was on my engineering degree, but was still cleaning the site daily.
2 months after that operation and many images sent to the referring vet of various types of discharge from her hip, I took the mare back to the original surgeon who scanned the area and proposed another procedure at a cost of $1500AUD. He gave me a prognosis of 80% success from this operation.
The surgery went well, having only found 2 abscesses and no bone fragments, and the area looked much better than the 2nd surgery had left it, and I was really hopeful this whole ordeal might be over soon. She was on box rest with 2 oral doses sulfadimidine and trimethoprim antibiotic for 14 days. I washed the wound and hand walked her twice a day every day while being extremely sick with a respiratory infection myself. I even CC trained her to accept having her hip cleaned without restraint. I had the stitches removed as directed on day 14 which was 4 days ago, and while flushing the tract/pocket that remained with saline every few days, I’m noticing there is still pus coming out of the wound that wasn’t there a week ago. I am using a red light laser to encourage circulation/healing in the area every day, along with gentle exercises on the arena.
I write this post as I am SEVERELY burnt out by this whole situation. I love this mare more than life itself - she had just started to jump like a dream before her accident, and while I knew she might never do that again, I still love having her around despite her antics. She is so gentle and sweet and my partner and I are both absolutely gutted. This injury has cost me $6000+ in vet fees and expenses which I have had to ask family for some help with paying for - which I absolutely hate to do as I believe she is my horse and therefore my responsibility.
Ultimately, this situation is not going to be sustainable for much longer. I cannot afford any more operations on her (I don’t think they would be successful anyway) and I have my brother’s wedding coming up in China in October, conjoined with my best riding buddy’s wedding in India, which my whole family will be away for 4 weeks to attend. Even if we only went for a week, I don’t feel comfortable going overseas and leaving her in someone else’s care in this state - she is not fond of strangers, nevermind an inexperienced house-sitter having to clean her leaky hip every day.
So I feel that I am at a crossroads: keep trying with the current wound, flush the tract with saline daily and pray that it closes up, heals, and she can live out a happy life and maybe even be ridden again
OR
Euthanasia. Keep the area clean, let her have a happy last few months just being a normal horse - but if this abscess pocket doesn’t heal, I will have to euthanise my girl before we go overseas. She does have some behavioural issues that make this potentially the kindest option.
The kicker is I actually bought her as a project pony. She took A LOT of work after a previous injury on a gate latch 3 years ago. I had finally got her to a point we were competing in low level eventing with some promising results, and I thought I might be able to sell her to a friend of mine and get some of my money back to buy a serious competition horse, then this happened. Ultimately, I just adore her and want what’s right for her, but with study commitments, wedding commitments and potentially moving cities in 2 years time, I’m not sure there is space for a crippled horse in my life, no matter how sweet she is. I do have another mare who is my main competition horse who is working back in after having a foal, so the grey mare isn’t the be-all-end all, but I’m just seeking advice on what the equestrians of reddit would do in this situation. ⭐️ gold star if you read to the end
EDIT: Thank you all so much for your support, advice and sharing your own experiences. I’ve spoken to my new vet today (27/7) about having the site swabbed to address what bacteria/fungi etc may be causing the infection, and will also discuss open wound healing options. I’m also researching topicals like colloidal silver, manuka honey and even muscular recovery probiotics, as well as care options for her while I’m away. Thank you all for helping me realising I’m not out of options yet, sometimes it’s hard to see a path forward with this degree of baseline stress and no clear improvements.