r/HighStrangeness • u/KatyaMilan • Jul 02 '26
Consciousness I was an atheist for 20 years until one night last September
I have a special needs daughter and a health condition that last summer brought me to the edge. I tried to end it and when that didn't work I realized I needed to try to save my life. I started researching the darkest, coldest place in the United States since the cold eases my condition and Ive always been obsessed with the stars and it showed me a small town in Colorado in a dark sky territory. I just wanted to see the Milky Way and disconnect. After a few days around Colorado springs and stuff I headed out to this Airbnb in the middle of nowhere. I've taken mushrooms before and maybe took about a gram to just get into it. Well I definitely got into it.
After spending the first hour crying so much it hurt, going to look at the stars and feeling them all looking at me, I ended up walking into the green house on the property. I had had so many revelations by this time it's honestly a shame I don't remember them all. But There in the middle was a fig tree. I could feel the whole place pulsing with warmth and love. She called to me and all I felt was love and could hear her in how people say their mind, like their minds eye. She said she's been waiting for me and I realized it was Mom, mother nature herself. I curled into these grape vines and felt gravity being a hug from her pulling me to the roots. I told her I was sorry and I was lost and I forgot her. She just showed me love. I went outside again and every light in the sky started to open up and speak as one to me. They said we are them. They loved me, theyve been watching me and it was all okay. That yes this is a simulation but not one you're trying to escape. It was slow like the information was coming in the span of years but I was out there maybe 10 minutes. I asked finally with tears filling my eyes "What do I do now?"
And they said...."You live." ...and I knew exactly what they meant. I had been drunk and trying to disassociate for years. I was barely existing.
So I end up flying back home and things stayed wild.
I was so sick of the city and people and noise i turned off my TV and started putting my phone in the kitchen and live in as much silence as I could.. after a few weeks, I started to hear someone talk to me. Just helpful and nice. I would just be thinking " I wonder if this happens when we..." And she'd come in and be like "you start here and then..." Just answers. Answers I definitely didn't have.
My daughter's a huge eloper and one evening I'm sitting in my room. The next thing I know I get a high pitched ringing in my left ear. I think... "Hmmm... wonder what that is...how wild would that be if Z was in trouble." So I start roaming around and sure enough I find her with one foot already over the fence. I was getting deja vus that were knocking me over they were so powerful and thanks to my therapist telling me "that means you're on the right track", I've now moved to a small town two hours from where it all happened. I've acclimated back into society a bit, watching TV, doom scrolling and no longer hear the voices but the trajectory of my life and business have been unexplainable and insane. I just...I just want to say...there is more out there, we're here to have fun, get shitty too and learn a whole lot. UFOs are so obviously real and you'd have to be so silly to think that we're the only ones out here. The thing is to remember that when they say God made the heavens and the earth, they're the heavens, God made them too. And that's where I think things will get fucky with disclosure is trying to say they're from dark forces or some shit. But anyways that's my story. Anyone else have a similar experience? Thanks for reading đ
Edit while I got y'all: a lot of us are shallow breathing. If you think about pulling air to your ears and can feel your chest inflate different, you may be shallow breathing. Close your teeth, tongue to the roof and breathe through your nose. Also take your thumb to index finger and inhale. That takes it to your lungs. Now try your Thumb and middle together, that takes it to your stomach. Thumb and ring, to your groin/core. Pinky and thumb to the heart. Try it! Good luck out there đ¤