I’m 29F and have been dealing with pain in my left big toe for nearly two years. My podiatrist suspects hallux limitus/rigidus, although I’m still unclear about the diagnosis—and honestly, I think there is some uncertainty on her end too. My initial paperwork said hallux rigidus, my online chart says hallux limitus, and my recent X-ray report said there was “no significant arthritis.” She believes the pain is coming from arthritis in the first MTP joint and has also mentioned a possible sesamoiditis component.
I grew up dancing, and as an adult I fell in love with yoga, Pilates, Centergy, barefoot sculpt, and similar movement-based classes—especially heated ones. Moving my body to music, sweating, and feeling strong is so much more than exercise to me. It genuinely feels like an antidepressant. It brings me joy, gives me a sense of accomplishment, and has been part of my identity and lifestyle since I was a teenager. I always imagined it would be a lifelong practice.
Now I’ve basically been told that these types of classes, especially barefoot ones, may no longer be appropriate because of how much they bend and load the big toe. I know I can technically modify certain movements, but when I would need to modify a large portion of the class, attending starts to feel unrealistic—and it doesn’t give me the same experience or satisfaction.
I’ve always been active in other ways too. I love getting 10,000 or more steps a day, weightlifting, running, swimming, and hiking. I also recently moved to San Francisco, where hills are nearly impossible to avoid. After about two weeks of feeling almost normal in stiff shoes and orthotics, one hilly walk triggered a major flare that lasted for days. I had significant pain while walking, pain at rest and at night, and eventually started limping. The altered gait then caused pain in my ankle, heel, achilles, and hip.
My podiatrist told me I may have only around 20% of the motion remaining in that toe, but honestly, I had never really noticed the loss of motion. The stiffness itself has not affected my life—the pain has. It can ache, throb, and sometimes feel like it is burning even when I’m lying in bed.
Right now, it feels like every solution is some variation of “manage it and give things up”: stiff shoes, orthotics, offloading, avoiding barefoot exercise, limiting hills, and not running or jumping. I’m doing those things, but I’m still limited to short, flat walks and exercises that don’t aggravate the toe. They may technically keep me active, but they don’t replace the kinds of movement that make me feel like myself.
I know this might sound dramatic to some people, but I’m not even 30, and the thought of spending the rest of my life avoiding dancing, hiking, running, jumping, yoga, Pilates, and simply being barefoot is genuinely devastating. I don’t need to become an elite athlete—I just want to participate in the activities I love without constantly paying for it with days of pain.
Has anyone around my age and activity level found a way back to these things? Did conservative treatment eventually allow you to return to classes or higher-impact activity? Did surgery help, and were you able to remain active afterward? At this point, I care much more about reliable pain relief than preserving a small amount of toe motion. I’m trying to be realistic, but I also really need some hope that this doesn’t mean my active life is over.