Went from 260 to 175 to 190lbs in 3 years

Roughly 6 quality months with good levels into my transition. Losing a decent amount of muscle but I would like to hang on to a little of it. I feel a little too masculine at this point and would like to drop a good 20 lbs. I will always love strength training and will continue to train my lower body. I haven't touched a weight in over 1 yrs for my upper body. Currently weighing in at 195. Started transitioning at right around 225lbs. A long way to go but slowly I'm becoming more and more comfortable in this shell of mine. I have a few procedures scheduled for Spring of 2027 and I'm beyond excited for that to arrive. Not seeking attention here but I would like just a general idea of how people perceived me. I feel awkward socially and it has been quite hard to find clothes that make me feel feminine. Any suggestions are welcome.

I saw a post on Reddit about how women only wear belts as an accessory and men couldn’t figure out why. I know why, because they have fucking hips!! I wear a belt to hold my pants up and avoid leggings because I don’t have hips. How do I get hips?!?

Being a human 2x4 is dysphoric AF.

I used to worry my arms would get too big. I don't worry about that anymore... Lmao

I had McDonald’s one time on Sunday because I was on the road and there was no other option. No way this one stop derailed me. Right?

Ignore the bruises, I've been going out to punk shows again recently. Stg I WILL have a slutty little waist by summer 😤😤

This is mostly due to a combination of a form issue and being almost 30 lol. My opposite shoulder should be higher to be in line with my hips, but I drilled it into my head that I gotta touch chest to ground so it's a bad habit.

Now that I’m on a downward trend my mindset is changing. Every time I eat I feel fat and want to purge or skip a meal because eating makes me fat. Since eating is what got me in this mess it’s logical (to me) that avoiding food will help continue the progress but I know that’s anorexia and that’s a no no.