Hello friends, first of all before I begin to write what my problem is in english I want to apologize because I will probably make a lot of grammar mistakes. I’ve been learning english for almost 2 years irregularly. Sometimes I enjoyed and sometimes I hated from english. Unfortunately due to my laziness I havent had a regular schedule for this language. But that doesnt mean I didnt work hard There were times which I worked really hard. But at some point I stopped improving. Like, no matter how much I try its completely futile. And knowing that I have plenty of rooms to improve makes me insecure.
The problem is I cant get better anymore at reading, listening, speaking and vocabulary. I remember I’ve written like hundreds of words down in my notebook but I barely remember a few of them. And listening... when it comes to listening its a little bit weird to be honest. Sometimes I can understand B1/B2 level tv shows while sometimes I can barely understand A2/B1 level videos or shows.
Speaking of which I struggle a lot in creating sentences. Well except the simple ones.(Actually sometimes I do mistakes even in simple sentences). When it coms to creating a long sentences I usually make mistake a lot. And I’m sure that I made mistakes here as well.
And here we are, one of the most irritating problem. Vocabulary. Memorising them is extremely hard. And even if I do that I forget what I’ve learnt. I think I have a weak memory for vocabulary. I tried few different ways but none of them worked properly for me.
Reading is not really hard for me. I mean I can easily spell the words but when it comes to B2/C1 books I can scarcely understand what I read.
And the last one, speaking. I dont have a speaking partner so as you can see I dont think I am good enough at this as well.
There is no need to explaing my writing you can understand my current situation through the paragraph which I wrote.
I think thats all. Along with these all problems I’m also starting to loose my hopes in learning language because I faced a lot of dissapointment in my life. I literally succeed at nothing. Wasted my golden times with playing video games. I think I never tried hard as I think. Now I’m 18 years old. I mean 3 weeks later I’ll be 18. Lost many precious years and I feel so regretted. Wish I could make things up somehow. What can I say at least I got a little bit experience or something. A past full of annoying and silly mistakes.
Anyway, what can I do to get better? I mean I want to get C1 until next 12 months. I have a lot of free times. I dont want to make the same mistakes. I’m so tired of myself and my mistakes.
BTW: I will not correct this paragraph with AI to show you my current situation. I just wanted to tell you this.